charmed

2006-08-07T03:56:00.000-07:00

its been ages since the updates. jex proves dat im a lazy gurll.
rarr. but im feeling kindof down and out lately.
smile charmaine, SMILEEE.

-* i'll try to let it go bit by bit.
im really trying veh hard.
but i really hope you do understand whie im feeling this way im nort being unreasonable or ridiculous. i promise you i'l let it go as tyme pass.
thank you fer nort giving up on me;
but alwaes there consoling me.
lurvelurve kay.

xuans//
i will never be angry with you.
never ever will.
cox ure my bestie. alwaes will be.
im jex sad and disspointed bout wurt happend today.
really pierced me.
cox you noe. it makes me feel that the one precious thing in my life is being threatened.
u've alwaes been my strong pillar of support.
the one where i'll look up to when im down and out.
the one that keeps me strong and happy.
but i believe in the special bond that we share.
i'll nort loose this faith; for,
i lurve you dearly.
thanks fer ure reassurance.
HUGGGS!!!

on a sweeter note for that sweetieeee:
i'll lurve you with every beat of my heart;
and rem our phrase?
NOW AND ALWAES
i still adhere to it when i sae that
((:

god bless.

2006-08-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

2006-06-22T21:11:00.000-07:00

((: its been awhile. but im still happy with life!
with you and my precious darlings!
hee. theres many highlights this tyme roounnd becox its been a real long tyme!

the past 2 weeks is supposedly our sch holis.
but it definately din felt liek its the holis becox of the amt of things dat i have.
which makes the other half of me wanna start sch faster!
haa. oh wells, brains liek to contradict at tymes.

oh yess. the biggest highlight of all is our hatch days!
i guess its been one of the nicest hatch days i have.
of cox wurt more can you expect when ure spending it with ure bestie and ure dearie ryte?
hee. BIG BIG thank you all!
i really lurve all ure effort, ure tyme but most importantly;
URE PRESSENCE
hugs bestieee... ((:
lurve.

mm. coached the kayakers from RP.
yea! it definatly was farn minus sum rascles!
but the sweetest thing of all was that YOU went.
that was more than enuff to spur me fer the entire 2 whole days.
the thought. the effort (:

on a serious note..
fyp's load of work are liek getting heavier and heavier.
lab and more lab work!
rarr. but im jex glad dat im kindof able to find that interest to keep me going.
i jex pray that things goes well fer the colloquim.

ytd nyte.. more liek morning was terrible.
i was feeling terrible. real terrible.
but it jex made me realised and made me so sure of wurt i wanted.
and i guess its really a good thing.
maybe its actually good that it happend.
and im preety comfortable to liek talk bout such things cox it really made me feel better.
at least nort having that veh lonely feeling nemore.
its hard to comprehand, but i hope you do.
cox its nort any you. but its the special YOU,
the you thats kept so dearly to my heart.
i dun expect you to understand it nw, on the spot.
but i jex pray that you'll understand it in tyme to come.
becox i believe its really nort easy fer our path to cross and even harder for feelings to grow fer each other.
yea. i ilu dearie.
really really do.
hugs.

2006-05-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

i hate this feeling.
but im dissapointed
whie dont you see things the way i do.
)):
maybe im jex unreasonable

2006-05-18T20:57:00.000-07:00

i realised this has been the longest break i took from blogging.
getting lazier and lazier. rarr.
but im happy with life now. in fact, very happy.
(:

thank you god for making my life now so fabulous.
ive gort the best of frens and the dearest thing in my life.
hee. you all noe you are.
you all definately makes my world go round.
and i mean it from the bottom of my heart.

highlights of life//
-meeting up wif the dearies for yummy food
*slurpss.. tho there aint much catching up, it doesnt matter to me noe?
cox within the silence im facinating bout this special bond that we share.
the many years of frenship and many many more years of it to come.
cant wait for the next dinner ! (:

-poseidon
hee. i lurve the show.
i lurve shows with the sea.
but of cox the show was made even greater with my precious beside me.
HAA. i lurve sitting in the cinemas.
cox it jex brings back the sweet memories of the past.
like hw the black and yellow cat pic makes me smile (:

-camp orion
the camp that the MCs took soo much time planning for it finally came.
tho there were sum screwed ups, we made it through HAPPILY (dats the emphasize)
and as usual, CAMP FIRE was the best of all.
the shoutngs, the cheers, the dance, the performaces;
it was totally exhilarating; everyone was in high spirits.
the adrenaline and the groove. beyond words.
but wurt i liek most bout the camp is of cox the PEOPLE.
shall nort name but yea.. ure the niceset bunch of people (:
really made camp F U N.
ooh. and nort forgetting wurt the silly gurll did during camp
CUT HAIR. haha.. SILLY RYTE
oh, and stop saying ure fat. ure NORT.
=D

-rockclimbing
haa. went climbing with the year ones and the rc gang.
i alwaes wanted to climb cox im scared of climbing.
i dun wanna be scared of climbing. i wanna conquer my fear.
hee. i did 4 walls ytd.
im happy and proud of myself ((:
oh but the best thing of all,
dearie's there too.
heee. he's presence is liek soo enuff to keep me smiling.

yea. the bigbig events in my life so far.
im lurveing it (:
TOTALLY.

on a personal note;
my precious one.. ure lurved.
now and always.
i lurve the sense of security; the stablenes
and jex soo soo many others which i cant comprehend and put dwn in words.
but you shd noe ure my motivation and my many many things.
so dun keep feeling liek wise kay.
cox its nort the wayyou tink it it. its just hard to sae. but its nort.
cox the only person dat ive gort right inside there is YOU.
and ONLY YOU.
-hugs.

2006-04-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

haa! im back again.
and i tink im a veh lazy person.
look at how big the gaps are frm 1 post to the other.
haha.

updates bout life..
mm. went blading with my precious gurl!
tsk. i officially hate humps can!!
grr..i keep falling at humps and it feels soo retarded cox you noe you gonna fall but cant help it.
and those damn pro bladers jex gortta be infront of you..
haha. you noe dat kindof pai seh-ness..
ahhh.. hah. but oh wells, precious saes its jex part of the learning process.
and i gortta agree cox i cant help but fall.
haha. okae randoms.
oh and part of the highlight of that dae was crystal jading.
haha.. my first tyme trying the buns at dat place can!
hee. precious alwaes brings me to places where food jex rawks.
but who cares! we lurve food ryte!!!
=D slurps

mm. oh i wanna announce!
i can finally start my car practicals!
after so long can...
i wanna drive! have my own car and DRIVE!!!
haha. cox can you liek imagine the amt of things that is to ure advantage when you drive!!?!
liek wake up laytor; walk lesser; have lesser things to carry on hand; can go hm laytor; can drive to nise places to eat and can liek basically go anywhere you want at anytyme! and most importantly, can spend more tyme wif the dearie (:
oh my gosh. dats liek paradise dont you tink so!?!
haha. okae! im so gonna work hard and try passing.
*start praying

hmm. on a more serious note..
sch's starting soon.
which means im liek gonna be a third year student alr!
rarr. i dun wanna grow old!
tho. i want my bdaes to come so i can have pressies!
hee.. but at least its the woodlands campus alr. which definately cuts dwn the travelling tyme!
at least sth to yayy about!
but dan again. 3rd year means FYP.
loads of read-ups and experiments i can forsee.
argh. pls giv me the strength to conquer all this.
haha.

butbut i noe with the sweet thing around me..
things cant be dat hard.
i jex lurve dat dearie so MUCH.
i dun wan 3rd year to end. ironically, since i dun liek studying. haha.
but cox i noe when it ends, it definately gives both of us a new phase in life
and of cox a test put to this bond that we have built up
im so scared to face it.
becox fer nw im sure, i dun ever want anything to change.
ANYTHING and definately nort the feelings.

2006-03-18T06:53:00.000-08:00

its beenn a realll long tyme since i blogged mans!
haa! im back nw.
harlow everyonee who sees this post!

manymanymany things happed all these days.
good and bad i can say.
dearie passed driving
i passed my coaching assesment! (yayy. i can get my first pay sooon!)
frens are sum tymes jex dissapointing
disney on ice wif dearie
mouse getting good o's results
i drove a power boat out at sea
i completed a 300 piece puzzle and framed it up
kayaking wif sch peeps
bbq-ed wif the trainers
cooked spagetti!

haha! i noe dere must be somemore!
jex dat i cant tink of it nw.
hmm. i wanna catch up wif my dear things!
meet up soon to have sum goooood food alryte!!
slurps* its beeen a long tyme since i ate nise foood.
its changi's food all the tyme!

*dearie! i feel so good, so good to have you.
i wanna tell you dat nothings ever gonna change
100 days.. more and more's gonna come. its neve gonna end.
cox deres nothing i want more dan you.
i heartheartheartheart you,
my precious. my one and only.
its you, its forever gonna be YOU.
((:

2006-02-24T01:02:00.000-08:00

deary's liek playing CS hereeee (beside mee!)
haa! exactly 1 more week to the last day of sch.
which means HOLIDAEESSSS!!!
but it means new klazmates and new campus too!
jex hope dat i'll be in the same klaz as you or near you!
but yayy! at least same sch.. ((:

mm. but sadly, the yr 3's leaving us..
which means no richmond and soo many others!
cries-
good luck to ure future endeavours alryte.
charmaine lurves you all!!!!

oh yess.
i lurve havaianas.
nort jex becox its havainas.
((:
i lurve greenandpink.

2006-02-12T14:56:00.000-08:00

its been a really long tyme since i blog.
haa! the lazy bug has really struck me..
alrytey.. shall update aleetle on hws life

went ard to visit sum of the dearies's hse,
met up with all those precious in my life;
had dinner wif the trainers
basically caught up wif everybody dat was dear to me (:

oh! and yess..
i tink this has been the most hardworking week fer me.
ive finally gort dwn to printing the kayaking shirt and
charmaines finally signed up fer driving!
whoaz! this is so nort liek me..
haa! but i wanna pass real fast!
i wanna drive. i wanna drive . i wanna DRIVE!

and of cox nort forgetting you*
it jex feels so nise to liek open ure eyes first thing in the morn. and smile at the mere tot of you.
this is really wurt you make me feel everyday!
thank you loaddiess dear thing.
andand im soo glad dat my parents din object to anything.
its liek really really a whole new experience.
but im lurving it.
((:

2006-02-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

this is the best CNY ever!
nort becox of the ang baos. but becox of YOU*
and of cox becox of the holidaysss.
(:

haa! i neve expect such a day liek todae wld come.
i tink its preety cool fer me.
cox it neve ever happend in 18yrs of my life.
but im jex soo glad it did.
and i jex hope things are rather obvious to them.
hee. and fer the first tyme i want it to be obvious.
((:

i hope 62 days would be liek 0.00001% of the no. of daes we are tgt.
cox i neve want it to end.
neve a stop to this wonderful picture that we've painted together.
hee. i still want my winnie the pooh on the moon puzzle and and
manyy mannyyy moreeeee.
cox everythang wif dear is awesome!
even if its the scariest, meanest thing.
cox wif dear,
everything seems soo much more at ease.
and im neve afraid to face another day.
lurve you dear-

2006-01-18T18:13:00.000-08:00

ure dat everythang.
and even if im a princess one day,
i'll still take you as my prince
because i'll have it no other way ((:
because its you, my precious.
ireplaceble;always.

saw both eye candies today!
rarr. been liek since a month plus since i saw her* larh.
but still as cool as alwaeys ((:
but wells, its jex eye candies.

2006-01-13T02:32:00.000-08:00

meetings.plannings.discussions.
was all that has been done this week.
grr, all fer sch's open hse.
and the worst thang is we are all down fer duty ALL 4 days and its full shift!
those dat are going dwn pls visit the ALC booth alryte.
argh.. all these meant no going out nor kayaking this weekend ):
haa! i jex lurve grumbing when i cant change anythang.
blahh blahh. randomness.

oh and another thang..
i tink ive gort food poisoning again.
charmaine seriously has a weak stomach.
haa! but precious's one aint much stronger too!
but the sad part is.. after every such food poisoning thingy,
i would liek totally loose my appetite for a couple of days at least
its sad cox even ure favourite food infront of you makes you feel liek puking.
arghhh....

on a lighter note..
GEISHA totally rawks can!
liek TOTALLY.
i lurve the show to bits larh..
i wanna watch the show again in the moviess..

i feel so much more drawed to you with each increasing day we are together.
its amazing how this feels.
indescribable.
i hope nothing would ever change with tyme.
nothing. absolutely.
ilu* dear (:

2006-01-10T09:00:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna go another day So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind Seems like everybody is breaking up And throwing their love away But I know I got a good thing right here That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind See the way we ride, in our private lives Ain't nobody gettin' in between I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me) (What I'm sayin' is)

And now, ain't nothing else I can need And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me I got you, we'll be making love endlessly I'm with you (baby I'm with you) Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about People hanging around They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me And that's all that counts So don't cha worry about People hanging around They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on) You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

stick wit you- the pussy cat dolls.

dedicated to you my precious* (:

it wasnt easy; but im never regreting it.

2006-01-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

4 star. it was really this close to ramonia.
but we were all too late.
i guess its all fated..
i can see dat all of us were kindof dissapointed when we knew all the places were filled.
becox we tried soo hard to persuade our parents.
but it only gort throgh the last min.
wells, it was a futile attempt. but at least we all tried our best i guess.
but guys, its 3 or none ryte
we'll be the first to sign up next yr!
we'll train hard for it.. (:
and ride the waves..
pitting and rolling at shallow waters was really a memorable experience..
i lurve kayaking. cant be any sure-rer.
blah. random//

oh and yea..
met up wif my dearies.
finally, all 3.
i realised dat its been really really LOONGGG since we actually sit dwn to tok.
but the feeling of all getting tgt was really good.
the homely warmth that i constantly feel.
nth beats it.
especially you xuanie!
im soo glad we met;
i cant imagine life without you; one dat noes me soo well.
6 yrs, yes. 6 yrs.
it'll forever go on.. on and on.
lurve you, my dearies.
and you, my bestest gurlfren xuan (:

its been a month.
and im jex so glad dat its still going on strong.
i hope it wld always be.
i noe tyme isnt alwaes on our side.
but i promise you i'll try hard. fer us.
ilu* dear.
liek wurt you sae.
alwaes do and alwaes will.

2005-12-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

life can never be any more enjoyable.
wif jex basically shopping.kayaking.hanging out.
woohoo. rawks.

shall do aleetle update on my life.
seems liek ive sumhw lost touch wif blogging fer some tyme.
mm. last week was really an eventful week.
basically went KL and cameran highlands.. chalet and yes!
TRAINER's NYTE//

KL:
SHOPPING!! that was the thing i lurve most bout the trip.
it jex feels so nise when ure currency is bigger and the things all seem cheap to you.
and when its wif parents! its even niserr. hee (:
but the long hrs of bus ride is really no joke mann.
i feel as if theres a bruise on my butt alr.
its farnie but its true. ultra mega long ride all the way to cameran highlands.

cameran highlands; 1500 above ground level.
cool hur..
COLD.. but i lurve their sweet potato balls larh.
i really wonder whie sg doesnt sell such stuffs..
sucha waste.
visited many farms and saw all the natives..
BUT.. i still prefer SHOPPING. haa!

trainers nyte;
tho. it was nort really a large scaled event,
im liek really honoured to be invited, im sure those that were invited frm Rp would be feeling the same too. cox its liek noeing that ure nort an official trainer yet ure invited when the rest are ALL official trainers.
but it was really really farn..
nort mentioning getting thrown into the sea by the other trainers.
haa! but im jex glad im at cssc.
all the trainers are damn nise ppl.
played games; drank aleetle and caught up wif the them.
its tymes liek these dat i really really enjoy myself.
cox if you tink about it... i really cant tink of another tyme where most of the trainers would be present.
but yea. i lurve them (:
and im jex glad that im part of their family..

haa! came across this phrase on the plastic bag of the ripcurl shop:
" my worst day in the water is still better than any day at work"
i tink its damn cool.. but i tink mine would be:
" my worst day in the water is still better than any day at school"
haha.. and to think school is starting soon.
but i miss the waters alr. jex a week and ive gort soo much urge to be on my boat nw!
rarrr..
i really wished my job is to kayak all day sumtyme..
haa. dat only exist in dreams. my dreams.

xmas shopping!!
i tink its really hard when you have to liek ged pressie fer ppl.
liek cox its nort ureself dan im nort sure of really wurt to ged too..
im liek frequenting twn, bugis and suntec all these days..
but stil.. its better dan sch.
at least its SHOPPING.
haha.. and i finally gort my flipflops.
yayy! (:
no more slippery slips on rainy days.

thanks fer everythnag dear.
ilu*

2005-12-06T19:09:00.000-08:00

never in my life do i feel this way.
ure so beautiful.
jex liek the one i alwaes dream of.
ure that perfect fit.
ILU. and i noe we'll last too (:

life during holis totally rawks larh can?
liek slping late and waking up equally late too.
woohoo.
dearest.kayaking.xuan.ade.shopping.
i guess dat summarises wurt ive been doing.
but im enjoying it.

and you//
i hope you'll live ure life happily to the fullest.
its probably fated dat we're nort meant to be.
but im sure you'll find ure perfect fit too.
im confident of dat. cox ure a nise guy (:

2005-11-30T23:58:00.000-08:00

im back to my straightstraight hair in sec sch.
haa! it feels liek im back to those days.
yayy. schs gonna break soon.
cant wait to meet my dearest xuan (:
i MISS you busloads gurl.

many bdaes these mth. all my gurls.
heres dedicated to you all.

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to all my dearies.
happy birthday to you..

all the best (:
and i lurve you. -* huggs.

there are jex too many things beyond my control
i'll jex let the hands of fate decide.
and fer you//
i miss you loads. you'll jex neve noe hw big this MISS is.
but i noe youve gort ure reasons not to talk to me and all..
i respect it. but pls noe dat im alwaes willing to be ure fren.
ure listening ear here. (:

2005-11-21T17:39:00.000-08:00

these few daes been hectic.
but im enjoying it.
its alwaes nise to catch up wif dearies in sch.
and yayyy!
dearest xuan finished her A's!
i tink i'll see you in a few daes tyme.
((: soulmate.
-*hugs.

been coaching alort recently too.
but i jex wanna ged my attachments over and done wif.
well, but its good in a sense dat im catching up more wif the other coaches.
((:
but i kinda miss the dancer and my skills.
nw its slalom, fiberglass cut, students.
haa! but we ged to wear the coaches vest.
whoaz. has alwaes been my leetle dream to wear them when i was jex a lowly 1 starer.
haha. i duno whie too.

ytd was urgh. i duno wurts the word i wanna use.
but yea.din really understand whie main coach wana do rescue when the wave's crashing.
and this student jex capsize dropping his paddle on my nose.
): was so pain dat i teared on the spot.
and i jex realised dat sum ppl really wun listen to wurt you sae.
regardless of the no. of tymes you reminded him.
tsk.
but all in all, i gained alort ytd.
and i noe main coach mux have his reasons fer doing things. (:
i'll neve give up giving a coach.

the special happyness when im wif you.
i dont wanna loose it.
cox i cant imagine being w/o you.
i hope its a happy ending.
ure pressence really made a diff in my life.

2005-11-08T22:18:00.000-08:00

i miss you!
my dearest,
sweetest
bestest
irreplaceble
gurl!

wong meixuan.

-*hugs (:
its neve the same without you.

2005-11-02T21:52:00.000-08:00

for the you; //
the everything that we once shared.
the hanging outs. the sweet things and even the quarrels.
i really cherish. up till nw. and im sure it'll be wif me forever.
everything is my fault. really.
i admit.
i need more than you can give me.
i expect more and i want more.
i neve ever tot about you.
and dats whie ive decided on this path.
i dun wanna hurt you. dun wanna force you.
dun wanna bring sorrows to you in this r/s with me.
i dun wan you to do wurt i want.
its really more than dat you see boy,
more you noe.
and i noe dats ure limit alr.
but its sad to sae dat its nort mine.
and i came to realise that ure nort mine
and vise versa, im nort urs.
im jex a selfish gurl that dont deserve ure lurve.
i noe you lurve me deeply.
i noe. trust me.
and i jex hope that deep down for you;
you'd noe that i lurved you too.
but i guess its nort enuff on my part.
i really tried hard for a period of tyme.
but i came to knew that its nort gonna work.
its a realisation of this fact.
i dun wanna hurt you even deeper,
dats whie im nort dragging.
i jex wanna thank you for lurving me this much.
but i dont think i deserve it.
i guess you may choose to nort want me as a fren alr.
and it really really hurts me.
when i try so hard to jex tok to you.
but all in all, i respect ure decision.
and im always here if you need a shoulder.
-hugs.

my decision to leave the canoe team.
a team dat's united.
a team i aspire to be in.
a team that trained real hard together.
a team that has great teamates.
a team that is determined to win.
a team dat has the BESTEST COACHES.
a team dat i LUVRVE.
a team dat i dun wanna leave.

but im going to now. )):
because i noe i wld have to one day.
i realise and finally did realised;
dat its impossible to focus on 2 water sports.
canoeing and kayaking.
i chose the latter.
because of the amount of effort i put in.
the 1 and a half yr of hard effort and time
the sweats that ive put in and the ppl that have faith in me.
its too much fer me.
and my passion for kayaking.
i can never lie to myself dat its stronger dan ever.
i noe dat ive gortta give up one soon.
or i wld be letting down both sides.
but i hate myself for these.
i should know that this would happen.
yet i agreed for myself to be committed.
rarr.. its tymes like these that i wanna turn back the clock.
i dont even noe hw to bring this up to the team.
i just hope dat you dont hate me.
i really have no choice.
and i dun wanna make things worse by staying. ):
i hope you'll understand.
dear god, i pray.

on a lighter note,
went out with sweets ytd.
was basically having bus rides around larh.
but the most important thing is i enjoyed the tyme.
it sure was tyme well spent; as long as its you.
i realised;
it doesnt really matter anymore; the status that we share.
i leave it up to fate.
im jex thankul that in tymes that im down;
ure my sunshine, brightening things up.
ure support, ure concern.
i can neve be any thankful to anyone.
and i jex wana see you smile that smile of urs forever.
(:

god bless.

2005-10-29T23:01:00.000-07:00

the highlight of fri NYTE:
stayed over at ade;s
haa! ade actually helped me draw sum eyeliner thingy.
my gawd. i swear i cant recognise myself in the mirror.
biigg blackk eyes. really's the first.
whoa! was totally blown away todae.
din noe i wld liek clubbing!
the ppl dere aint as bad as i tink they were.
the music.the dances. the moves.the ppl
(:

kayaking was great today.
tho. i was drained, the boat alwaes makes me energised.
kayaking so rawks larh. ((:
haa! but was soo drained after dat that i fall asleep on the bus.
slept liek i was partially unconcious.

but all in all. everythings so nise.
after ytd nyte.
i duno whie. but i suddenly felt distanced frm u.
is this all but jux a crush?
or am i jux tired of trying so hard alr.
i hate the fact that we are nort here nor dere.
but im sure god has the best planned for me.
(:

2005-10-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

charmaines darnnn lazy to blog.
o f f i c i a l l y.
haa.

shall have a summarized verision.
-*bad trng on mon. and i gave coach attitude ):
-*din noe i had lab and came to sch in shorts and slips.
-*having great tymes wif ade and ter.
-*caught up wif twin and xw!
-*partyingg wif the darls.
-*kayaking (:
-*enjoying my new klaz.
-*going high in klaz
-*hanging wif sweets
-*running

dats basically all thats been happening.
-*you
i miss you.
the tymes that we were so close.
yet nw i cant even look at you fer a min.
okae. maybe i shd sae..
we dun even tok.
):

2005-10-23T14:14:00.000-07:00

its difficult to differentiate.
here and there. cox its jex a mere margin seperating it.
but wells, i guess its good this way.
cox im unsure too.quite.

and and. its kinda hard to juggle 2 water sports!
but i luvre both of them which is the major prob larh.
and mums dun approve me of spending my weekends on them.
its either this or that.
which means, kayak or canoe in a week. )):
i wish i am a fish. i lurve the seaaa...
Roarss....

2005-10-17T20:52:00.000-07:00

i feel lost. lost in the middle of sth i duno.
how dumb can dat sound.
but its jex really hw i feel.
roars.
been sick these few daes.
everything jex majorly sark when ure sick.
i wanna let go of all my emotions.
ALL.
jex teach me hw.

ure actions are all contradicting wurt you sae.
really duno wurt i shd do too.

and i jex really wana give you and you a hug.
real badly.
i miss you.
but i guess its fated that things are this wae nw.
i feel so fuck-ed up.

trngs.trngs and more trngs.
but republicanoe, i lurve you team.
you guys rawk.
train hard okae.
we'll do coach proud.
(:

2005-10-08T23:10:00.000-07:00

passed the first week of sch.
but at least wif a klaz dat rawks.
im so glad dat its a farn one!
and and also kindof ged to noe alort of new peeps in 1 week itself.
but the best thing of all..
i feel soo much closer to my dearies..
(:

the usual 3 hangouters.
its so nise to be alwaes able to relate anything and everything.
theres liek nth to hide and stuff.
making me really understand the meaning of frenship.
thank you lurves.

i hope everything goes well fer you.
tho. its really dissappointing to noe dat weve drifted dat far.
i still cherish the memories.
takkaire.

ciaoz.

2005-09-23T09:54:00.000-07:00

things are different nw.
real different fer me i guess.
but its the best for both of us.
you takkaire.
i'll still be dere fer you alryte.
(:
tho. i noe its painful fer both of us.
i still think its the best.
or else i'll bring you more pain.
and im sure you'll find more more happiness without me.

haa! holis kindof packed wif basically 2 tings.
kayaking and canoeing.
T R A I N I N G S.
but they really bond us together.
skills. pull ups. runs. tymings.
we can do it.
republicanoe (:

-kayaking
went down to practice.
and gort another KOP attachment done.
charmaine really hope she can pass her 3 star assesment.
dun wanna let all my trainings go down to nothing at all.
i wanna be an official coach.

on a lighter note.
i hope the recent ophir team made it to the top!
jia you team.

hanged out wif bro.
hahaha mans. hes liek the ultimate silliest.
but gentleman too. aww. cant praise too much
or else he'll ged a bigger HEAD!
thanks da ge fer alwaes being here wif me through all these tymes.
much much appreciated noe?

gonna meet up wif ter and ade ltr.
catching up tyme.
cant wait fer tymes liek that.!
wheee...

ciaoz.

2005-09-15T11:06:00.000-07:00

sumtymes i really wanna noe if its me or you.
am i the selfish one, demanding too much..
or ure jex nort dere?
whie do i alwaes seem to have a linger of regret
which i noe i shouldnt even have larh.
but wells, no ones perfect.
and you cant expect ppl to change right?
and and maybe..
im the one dats expecting way way tooo much.
period.

14th/sept.- klaz bbq!!
whoa.. have actually been waiting loong fer this dae since the last dae of sch.
cox i guess, its only daes liek this where you wld see near full klaz attendance?
and the small talks we had by the beach, the crazy food bbq-ing session
the photos and the jokes.
its jex liek a puzzle, and everyones a piece of it.
it'll alwaes be unforgettable memories in my lil brain.
smiles (:(:(:

the toks we had through the nyte was totally great.
im actually overjoyed that we could spend the nyte..
jux sitting and toking bout things.
cox its things liek this dat makes ppl closer?
and also the things that we toked, cool ey..
-jetty next tyme okae.

competitive kayaking means 1 more commitment.
i hope things goes well.
and i really pray that my arms can take the weights?
its been aching liek since mondaes training.
and im having training tml!
arghh.....
but things going well!
-great advisor
-great coach
-shirt printed
-committed members
haha.. total coolness .
republicanoe. we rawk!

yeps. dats bout the updates.

ciaoz.

2005-09-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

many many things happen.
and im really confuse myself.
but nw, im preety much sure of things.
but i still hate myself fer thinking bout things this wae.
i noe i shouldnt have. but who can stop or even control such things?
i dun wanna give up on this tower dat ive built.
after soo many storms dat it has been through.
-i sincerely pray fer the best.

2005-08-27T23:22:00.000-07:00

CAPTAINS BALL..
TA0401 RAWK THE COURT.!

yesyes! to me, it doesnt really matter wurts the score.
but wurt matters is the bonding as a klaz in this event
i felt it soo strong, and the feelings soo nise.
the playing, the cheering on, the late night dinners.
i lurve u TA0401!!

one more week and schs gonna be out.
we gortta hang out more okae!!!
i dun wanna loose this strong bond we havee (:
B A R B E Q U E //
wheeee...

im so sure of wurt i wan nw.
-ilu (:

2005-08-13T23:27:00.000-07:00

ure words are jex so mean.
its piercing deep dwn in my heart
to you its only wurt you feel and its filtered.
but dat hurts you noe. badly.
i swear im trying hard.
im trying my very best to give in and understand
but can you jex understand me this once?
im really at a lost to wurt you want.
cox for me, im giving you my all.

i dun understand ure thinking and perceptions
and you dun understand mine.
):

2005-08-09T10:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY everyoneee!
jex suddenly realised hw tyme passed.
whoa.. but i dun wanna grow old ):
haa!

shall do a leetle update on a the weekend and ytd.
headed dwn to cssc fer a briefing fer the course.
had a leetle bonding session.
james.pearl.richmond.kevin.saysiang.
met sweets after dat..
caught charlie and the choc fac.
oh man... the cinema at bugis is liek damn dark larh.
imagine we cant even see each other when we are walking?
im sure dats the darkest cinema one can find.
cant see wurt ure eating. LOL.
but all in all...
i lurve all the tyme spend (:
but i lurve you moreee.. hee.

had level 1 coaching on sun.
was actually alr drained frm sat..
yea.. and the soo much theory made me DARN sleepy.
but the practical session was good.
really improved my strokes and skills.
and the course really made me thought of things i neve tot of b4.
instruructors and coursemates were nise ppl.

ytd.which was liek mondae.
and a sch holidae fer us larh..
but we gortta head dwn to sch fer container clean up.
arghh... woke up aching here and dere.
really couldnt move lahr.
but decided to go since its my responsibility to.
ahah.. was late fer 3.5hrs.
but at least i went! haa
had "shampoo" tyme..
was liek totally wet and soapy.. lying on the groundsheets.
totall coolness..
had really loads of farn washing and packing the tents and stuff.
haha.. dats wurt i liek bout ALC.
the pure farn and bondings dat we share.
simply rawks. ((:
had a leetle dinner together wif most of the MC.
nise session ppl...

argh.. gonna be late fer my NDP thingy againnn..
gortta go nww..

till dan.. see ya.
takkaire all my frennss!

ciaoz.

2005-08-05T22:54:00.000-07:00

charms backk.
its been sumtyme since im blogging.
hiaz. perhaps things hasnt been going too well fer me.
but im gonna jia you.
yess!..

todae actually started off well.
but it went downer and downer.
duno whie but i jex felt damn lousy when i gort hm.
perhaps after seeing all my fren's stressness and troubles that they are facing.
i cant help but feel sad.
and and bestie is falling sick.
)):

i hope all things turns out well fer all my darlings.
candy.geraldine.yingying.adeline.terence.
and bestie;
jon.
you guys jex rawk my world in sch.
thanks fer being lufter in my world.

lets all work hard okae.
im sure we all wanna ged into uni
lets all jia you together okae?
do nort be discouraged; jex work doubly hard okae peeps.

*sweets.
there are jez soo much endless quarrels.
misunderstandings and disagreements.
but lets nort be afraid of the past.
we mux bravely walk dwn this together.
lurve.

my level 1 coaching course would be starting soon.
but im glad those who are going are all lovely.
the regulars!.
3 cheers fer us.!! the coaches to be...
jia you.

yayy.. 3 holis fer national day.
but darlings and me will be dwn fer national day.
im so gonna slpp fer the other 2 daes.
sleep sleep sleep.
haha..

ciaoz.

2005-07-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

grr.. finally picking my lazy ass back to blogging.
-smacks.

the update on last week?
SCH.uts.trainings.
yea. that sumarises my whole week.
but at least theres trainings that perk me up.
haa! and of cox such sweet dearies and sweets*
only motivation to wake up and get dwn to sch.
(:(:(:

kayaking ytd.
was totally looking forward to it (:
but those supposed to go fer the 1 star course totalli pissed me off.
im so nort gonna believe you guys next tyme.
RESPONSIBILITY. noe sucha word?
bet sucha word dun exist in ure fcuking dictionary.

sorry jeff. fer all the troubles made fer you.
promise dere'll be no next tymes kay.
thank you fer being so nise to us. (:

but on a lighter note.
ytd's club was filled wif RP's kayakers.
aww. how happy i was.
both dancers and slaloms filled the sea.
seeing hw they enjoyed this training session,
made me willing to plan much much more events fer you guys.
team Rp. kayaking.
you rawk my world. (:
lets have more farn together..
whee. i lurve bonding sessions liek this.
its neve the same without each and eveyone of you.
-smucks.

although i doubt i can ever go fer this tyme's 3 star assesment,
i'll neve give up on this passion.
i'll train hard .
lets jiayou kay everyone.
those taking the test.
im so proud of you guys.
all the best. (:

sweets*
jiayou wif ure FYP kay.
thanks fer picking out tyme frm ure very busy schedule to accompany me.
haa! lurve.lurve.
-hugs.

i lurve sch becox. of things liek

#1 kayaking
#2 dearies
#3 sweets*
haa.. note that its nort to study.
muahha..

shall be back to blog soon when im nort feeling lazy again kay.
(:
ciaoz.

2005-07-07T11:27:00.000-07:00

tis week's been a rather tough week.
loads of stuff up in my lil mind. ):
sighs-
twin! i agree wif you larh.
can we have 48hrs a dae?
24 seems too leetle.
i cant even have my sweets beside me after sch.

sweets*
was so touched when you tell me you still lurved me
and you din regretted being wif me. (:
ME TOO KAYY!!
but sometimes i really wish ure in my klaz.
or at least ure in yr 2.
dan you wouldnt be tied wif fyp.
im jealous of fyp.
alwaes having you.
i hate fyp.
liek we can see each other only liek fer half an hr.
during breaks?
so sad cans...
))):

twin*
twin!!..
my twin is nw so sweetly in lurve huh.
muahha..
twin im jealous of the tyme you can spend wif her..
haa!

yingying DEAR*
haa! darl..
so soorry and sad that i canort make if fer ure competition
but my heart was wif you alwaes.
hee. hope you felt it.
thanks fer ure care fer me everytyme.
appreciated mans.
the touch of ur hands in mine is liek so warming.
makes me fear nothing.
u jez make me feel so secure.
ure liek my da jie cans.
argh.. lurve my da jie loads le.
-muaks...
im here fer you alwaes kay!
gort anything mux tell ure darl here hoh..
*lurve... <3

mm. im begining to feel the warmth of my klaz.
they are all so nise ppl mans..
you ppl rawk my world mans.
thanks fer all ure support when im soo down.
ppl whom i neve tot would consol and be so concerned fer me.
thank you soo much mans..
(: TA0401 rawk on ..
haa!

ciaoz.

2005-06-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

yay. first week of sch is near gone.
but i look forward to the holis alr.
dan again no.
dun wanna ged to yr 3 dat fast.
it actually scares me that we're gonna graduate soon.
out of high sch.
to pursue our career or continue studying.
dun even noe wurt i wan also.
argh. shant tink bout all those.
i lurve sch.
wif all my dearies.
and my *sweets dat i dun wana share wif anybody.
im a selfish gurl.
hee ((:

life's preety much the same.
oh. but i went training on tue!.
aww.charmaine is sucha goodgurl.
haa! okae. ignore that.
dats random.
haaha.

sleep over at the gurl's hse fer 2 days.
haa. guess it wld be MOVIE MARATHONS!
and heart to heart talks.
of cox. PICTURES.
hee. ((:
lurve them to bits.
sighs- too bad elmo cant make it ):
i'll miss ure jokes and pressence kays!

sweets
sweets
sweets
sweets
sweets

* i lurve you to bits.

-its jez the unknown smile that spreads across at the mere tot of you.

i noe nuts bout wurt ure studying.
i cant help you wif ure anything.
NTH at all. ):
seeing you slog so hard.
and ranting on and on bout hw bad things are,
im totally at a lost of words.
no more words of consuls nemore.
i feel so freaking useless.
especially at tymes when ure soo troubled wif work.
i can only stand there.
-sighs.
i'll alwaes be ure listening ear kay!
but i jez dun feel good nw. jez sad.
perhaps i cant see you go through any hardship.
promise me,u'll takkaire.
):

ciaoz.

2005-06-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

its 12:19AM nw.
which means in a few hrs tyme im having sch.
urgh. sch & studies. definately nort fer me ryte twin?
haa!
but the tot of my dearies and you*
makes me happy going to sch. ((:

loads of events happened last week.
and its all sad ones ):
both particulaly impacted me.
but im jez glad its over.
i hope sis. wld learn to be strong.
im useless and lousy.
cox i cant even do a thing to make her feel better.
sighs-
but i really cant bring myself to sae anything
consols and encouragments.
ive gort soo much to sae yet i cant
tears wld start welling up. ):
charmaines sucha cry baby.
and tis feeling sarks.
i lurve you, and i hope u'll alwaes rem that
i'll NEVR EVER leave you.
stop tinking bout that fcuking bastard larh kay.
hes nort worth it at all.
and hes SOO gonna regret it.
hes jez one BIG JERK.
hidayat pls fark off frm my sisters life okae.
im jez begging you.
dun ever make her cry again.
her tears are jez soo precious to me if its nort to you!.
SOO. to me, ged it!

you*
im jez glad all's over.
dun make me cry again kay.
cox im seriously damn sad after my cries de.
hee. but ive never ever regreted being wif you
regardless of the numbers of disagreements.
-lurve you busloads sweets*
i hope this lurve we share wld never be broken!
i lurve ure stories
i lurve the wae you let me lie on ure shoulder
i lurve the wae you hold my hands
i lurve ure care
i lurve ure concern
i lurve ure everything. ((:
im a happy gurl wif my sweets*

[[xuan]]
my darling.
my soulmate.
i lurve you.
really.
i noe im alwaes repeating,
but yea.. i lurve everything dat we share.
its jez so magical.
it can be weeks or mths since we meet or chat.
but when we meet again.
the feelings alwaes the same.
it neve changes. NEVE
jez liek the neoprint. it can be old.
but its alwaes wif us.
im so touch by this SPECIAL bond we share.
argh..dun scold me fer being mushy.
but i jez lurve you gurl to bits kay!
*muaks lurve lurve.
-miss you loads larh. ):

[[twin]]
twin! im soo happy fer you.
and even happier to noe that you both are getting on so well.
smiles- finally everything is right in its place.
no more sadness and big disappoints.
takkaire twin. (:
come to me if you ever need someone kay!
twin will zhi chi you ones.

haa! went kayaking wif the WHOLE gang on sat
but it rained larh.
anyhows, we still kayaked.
although we all din ged much done,
i still enjoyed that short session loads.
frenship. it jez make me feel so nise and warm
-hugs

okaeokae! tink i shd jez retire to bed soon alr.
its 1:00AM.
which means im left wif 5hrs 30mins.
argh.

ciaoz.

2005-06-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

baby,
you duno hw much youv shattered my heart ytd
the hurt you caused. its humongus.
i yearned fer ure support, ure encouragement
ure words of hw we're gonna make it through.
but im jez faced wif soo much words of total opp. opinion.
i noe, i would have to spend more tyme since im becoming one.
but jez trust me this once that wurtever it is;
i will squeeze tyme out. jez fer you.

TEST.
dats a farking word.
i hate that word.
i hate to be used on me.
especially when its you.
im utterly shattered when you said it.
eventhough you saed that its to cover wurt uve previously said.
but youstill used it.
maybe im jez making a mountain out of a mole hill
but yea,im really affected by ure words.

i lurve you.
im willing to put all these arguements behind.
im over it.
im nort sad anymore.
cox i noe u'll have ure reasons.
trust.
i trust you.
but i really really dun wana shed another tear.
every arguement we have is alwaes breaking my heart into yet another smaller pieces.
but jex rem..
im willing to go through anything,
cox i lurve you.

2005-06-23T11:52:00.000-07:00

then if u wanna punish me or something
then ure free to do so la!

hmm. evidence.
thats wurt ZQW sae at 1114am.
so yarh.better let me kick ure ass next tyme.
no retaliating.
cox im still angry*

i'll alwaes rem.
and you tis copycat.

* okae. ppl dun try deciphering wurt the load of words are.
its senseless, unless you noe.
(:

2005-06-22T10:22:00.000-07:00

whoa! finally the 3 consec. daes of activities are gone.
whee!! but sch's starting.
aww. liek hw sad larh..
no more slping till late in the morn.
and yarh.. STUDIES. urgh!
but the good thing is...
yayy.. i can see all my darlings.
*misses my dear gurlies.

hee. gort into that triathalon volunteer thingy.
but its pathetically at 5am.
oh man. hw the hell am i getting there at 5 larh.
when its at EAST COAST.
tsk.
heck it. shall think bout it when the tyme comes.

whey qiwei.
bear wif ure FYP kae.
jiayou.jiayou.jiayou.
i guess tyme is nw nort on our side.
but yea. we cant help it too.
but dun be sad kae.
cox to me, we are bonded by heart.
and rem,
nth shd affect that; unless you want it to.
ilu.
*sweets

2005-06-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

okae... back to postings.
been rather busy the whole week.
but i dun really noe wurt im busy wif tho.
okae. crap. haa!

mm. yea went to sch fer sum sign language NDP thingy.
i tink was rather cool larh.
signing the pledge and a song.
but deres a prob. when it comes to me;
cox my hand cant work that fast.
damn! haa...

sighs-
its kayaking again..
first, its organizing.
dan, sending of soo many mails.
and answering all QSN.
next, its to bring them to the club all alone.
jez learned that wif great roles, comes great responsibility.
finally understood that term.
but im nort blaming anybody.
cox i noe theyve gort their projects and all.
i jez hope those ppl enjoy kayaking and pursue it.

ade: haa. so nise to noe you alr xiang tong le.
and glad to noe that ure frenship wif van is strongly building up yea.
i hope frm nw on, good things will go ure wae.
*muaksz.

oh! and went out wif my green fruit.
gort a shock when i saw IT.
haha.. super reminded me of greenie cans!
its cute and nise! BUT
jez NORT AS CUTE. (emphasised)
gort our damn nise ring done.
hee. cool ryte (:
lurve silly green fruit L O A D S.

thank you fer ure everything.
ure pressence and ure utmost care.
ILU my silly boy.

ciaoz-

2005-06-09T23:52:00.000-07:00

yayy! everythings fine nw.
im soo HAPPY.
jez realised how impt ure to me.
nth else seems to matter
jez as long as im wif you!
-smiles.
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

ijezlurvemyyou*!
L O A D S.
i wana announce it out loudd!!

i lurve the little boy and gurl story.
but i lurve this one moreee.

there was once this superhero stranded on this snowy island
he is hungry, cold and sick
then got this super cute penguin comes hopping by
the penguin saw the poor superhero
then she goes give some food and water to the superhero
then take him back to her snow cave
as she take care of the fallen superhero
they fall in lurve!
and then got this big bad giant turtle
come to threaten the peace of the island!
then the superhero, fueled by lurve for the penguin,
starts to counsel the big bad giant turtle!
moved by the lurve between the penguin and the superhero,
the big giant turtle agrees to be the superhero's sidekick and turn over a new leaf!
then together the turtle learns how to sing jay chou songs from the superhero!
then the 3 of these pple live happily ever after!

only you* will understand this story.
-lurve.

2005-06-09T11:32:00.000-07:00

when i sae studies cum first
i really meant that.
but isnt it normal to feel neglected?
okae, maybe nort SO neglected,
but i wld jez feel so weird.
but wells, i apologise.
i shouldnt even be bothering you wif my childish thoughts.
im so sorry,
you should be studying hard.
and here i am disturbing you.
i guess im jez expecting too much
jez ignore me kae.
pls. work hard and takkaire okae.
lurve.

2005-06-09T00:50:00.000-07:00

DAMN HAPPY TODAE!
finally hanged out wif the WHOLE clique.
its cartel first and coffee club next.
oh man.. damn full! but contented.
oh yeah. and of cox i was wif my cam as usual.
snap.snap.snap.
hee. the cartel's waiter was liek luffing at us larh.
i guess he was tinking hw lame can we ged.
4 person. in their same seat wif their same food.
but taking COUNTLESS shots!
but i lurve it!! YAYY...

oh yarh! i finally gort my cap!
luckily they still gort it.
or else i would be damn sad.
i lurve the capppp!!!
went to coffee club.
hhaaa..
rambutan freeze is N I S E.
everyone drink they should ryte elmo?
haa! the YO DA lingo.
cant stop luffing my ass of!
but sth sad happened!
my cam ran out of BATTT!
liek hw sad can... cant snap nemore alr ):
but wells, next tyme kae ppl!!

whee! NISE BONDING SESSION
i jez lurve sessions where we can jez sit and tok about anything under the sun.
its so heart warming.
makes me jez forget about sad stuff.
thanks lurves.
you guys made my dae again.
(:

thanks fer ure super nise chocolates
PEARL!!!
i lurve you. ( i dun care. ure mine!)
(: muaks muaks..
kayaking sooon kae. verysoonn...
we mux pass the assesment kae.
lets work hardtogether!

-cries
actually ifeel soneglected.
icant deny im sumone who needs alort of care.
but idun wanna disturb you.
i wanna learn to be strong.
i cant keep relying.
its tearing me apart.
sometymes i jez feel so dissappointed.
im alwaes showing constant concern.
but whie din you at least asked me if im hm alr. nort.
or at least tellme ure slping alr?
and you sounded sounwilling to toked on thephone.
its liek hw sad lorh.
iwould take anytyme out jez to tok to you.
even if im sick and busy.
wells, i guess imjez being an ass.
a selfish one.
iwanna be independant. ):
i dun wanna be a burden to you.

-god bless. (:

2005-06-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

im feeling hardworking nw.
soo. im gonna ged sum blogging done.

im gonna make an announcement.
haa! im finally exercising and sweating today.
after feeling guilty fer so long. hee.
im officially LAZY..OKAEEEE
but treking training was farn larh.
at least wif those very enthu peeps.
you guys made it a nise and successful ones man.
really hope to see you all the next trainig yea! (:

mm. i guess we wouldnt see each other soon bah.
but charmaine cant be selfish.
studies first ryte.
but i really hope our relationship wun be strained.
i dun wan history to repeat itself again.
was so hard fer me to ged over the previous rs.
-sighs.(cant a day have more hrs)
imgonnaputallmyheartintoit!
cox i trust it.

gonna treat the gang to dinner tml.
another nise bonding session.
yayy.
i lurve you dears.
ure alwaes dere in tymes when im dwn.
smiles (:

ade: dear. i miss you!
lets hang out next tyme kae.
i wan UPDATES!!
muaks.

charmaine wants all tobe happy.
nth else matters okae frens.

ciaoz.

wheee!!

2005-06-04T13:35:00.000-07:00

todaes the 4th of june which means that ytd was the 3rd.
oh man.. i gortta wait another yr fer another bdae!! haa!
but im officially E I G H T E E N nw!
im a big gurl (:

wanna sae a BIGBIG THANK YOU to everyoneee!!
its really so nise to noe how many people actually rem ure bdaes.
thank you thank you!!

sd.
altho. deres been a no. of disagreement
but in the end we still manage to work it out
these has made me cherish every tyme spend even more.
mm. and im sure mummy lurves you loads too kae.
its jez the wae she express herself yea.
but i'll be dere fer you kae.
你要做一个勇敢的男人，加油!!
ilu.

bearbear.
haa! ure the only bearbear in my entire life and heart kae!
i lurve you busses and truckss loads mans.
i really treasure our ultra unique frenship.
the bond has never ever change.
regardless of simply ANYTHING.
its liek we are each others soul mate.
we understand each other so well even without speaking.
argh! i jez lurve you.
加油 fer everything kae.
i noe all things wld work out well fer my bearbear de.
你要每天开心 kae!
i misss youuu... lurve.

twin.
twinn.. haa! im soo touched by ure bdae wish.
hee. you still remember!
thank you!!!
good luck in all ure matches kae.
and lifes nort smooth sailing.
so even if the games din go as well as you expect.
dun give up kae! continue STRIVING.
im sure my TWIN can make it!.
believe in ureself kae!

ade.
gurlliee... enjoy ure holis okae
im sure wurt you are hoping fer will come true soon
and its real soon kae.
i wan you to live a happy life.
dun alwaes look on the dwn side kae.
deres alwaes me hereee..
dun forget that i lurve you too.!

her.
im really overjoyed that you still rem my bade.
whoa!! wanna sae thank you loads.
eventhough you wun noe that its you.
jez really appreciate it.
enjoy ure holis kae.
takkaire takkaire le...
-smiles (:

the gang.
GANGMATES!! i wanna blog it dwn BIG AND OBVIOUS.
I LURVE YOU GUYS LOADS TOO!!
thanks fer everything!
fer hearing me out.
cheering me up.
accompanying me from tyme to tyme.
taking care of me.
bringing lufter to my life.
and and.. celebrating my bade wif creams on my face larh.
hee. THANK YOU.
the cake was the SWEEETEST i ever had.
with thoughts of each of you.
rem our date yea.
partyingggg tyme..
argh.. i cant wait mans..
*hugs and kisses alll.... (:

mm. okae, tink i shd stop alr.
damn long post.
but yea. wanna show gratitude to all.
you people make my life so worth living.
rawk on peepsss...
muakz.muakz haa!

ciaoz.

2005-06-01T21:57:00.000-07:00

i hate ppl asking me whie fer that particular subject.
stop asking. i jez do.
its nort jez the looks ged it?
and its making me angry larh.

*icantwaittoplaecandleswifyou.

2005-05-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

countdown: 1 week more to the holis!!
YAYY!!

mm. last week was darn hectic mans
practically slept at 1am everydae.
and im those that need at least 8hrs of slp?
but wells, the holis is here newae!

the awards ceremony thingy was finallly over.
haa! liek i dun even noe wurt i was gonna wear until the last min larh.
tsk. but yea. all the guys look damn nise ytd.
(:

eggy:
though there are many quarrels among us.
i guess its inevitable.
cox we are jez 2 diff persons.
but im jez glad that we can compromise kae.
to me. the quarrels are all worth it.
makes me so sure that ure fer me.
ILU.
you're jez the one i wanna hold.

ade:
sweets.
i guess the downs and the ups in ure life cant be helped.
its jez nort within our means to do anything
wells. but i believe in fate.
and since ure alwaes the hurt one.
im sure the right one fer you will be here soon kae.
dun worry. u'll find ure pillar of support.
and fer nw.
im ure pillar.
dun ever give up okae!
(:

hugs-

2005-05-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

f i n a l l y. theres tyme fer me to update this blog!
haa! its amazing how tyme flies mans.
jez imagine its 2 more weeks before the holis!
whoa.. cant wait fer than.. argh..HOLIDAES!!!

yea. camps over now. cool.
no more longgg meeetings.
the camp was damn tiring fer all the MCs larh
i gortta admit that.
in the 2 daes we slept onli liek fer 3 pathetic hrs?
freak ryte. tsk.
and im one who NEEDSS slp. haa!
oh wells. at least its over! YAYY!

UTs. one word. SCREWED.
cant really imagine my grade fer it larh.
its either i noe the ans. but gort no freaking tyme.
or i totalli noe nuts bout the topic.
urgh!
oh yea.. i HATEmy GENETICS FAC.
how contradicting can 1 person ged mans.
going on and on about how well you are doing in her klaz.
and hw well ure RJ is.
yea. scroll dwn the page and there the big C is staring at you.
fcuk.
and yes. my dear fac.
wurt makes you think that the guys in my grp dun do work?
pls do nort ever ask me that qsn again.
YES THEY DO WORK.
can you nort judge them by how they look?
they are nise ppl mans.
cant stand the way you shamed them in klaz.
wurts ure prob?
sickening ass.

okae. enuff bout that.
oh yea... ive finally gort my favourite PUMA bag!
yayy!

sd.
thanks fer taking care of me
going the extra mile to do so.
i appreciate that
thank you.

guess. thats all dats happening in my life.
oh. i missed out.

I MISS MY FRENS..
ALL OF THEM.
CATCH UP SOON KAES.
LURVE.

ciaoz.

2005-05-06T00:15:00.000-07:00

school's hectic! and i dun have tyme fer myself larh.
and freaking ut is here! yucks.
everydae seems to be packed wif things. i hope camp faster end!
*hopes everything goes well fer the camp

i dun understand.
its nort alwaes only the good things dan you can share wif me.
i wanna noe everything.
e v e r y t h i n g.
im hurt.
i jez wanna be dere fer you.
both the ups and the dwns.
but i cant. i duno and u dun wanna tell.
sighs- )):

i wan holidaes!
i wan daes where the only thing we do is slpppp!.
god. im soo in need of it nww!!

ciaoz.

2005-04-26T08:04:00.000-07:00

tsk. freaking msn is liek screwed larh.
made me gort so worried fer nothing.
but noe wurts the farnie thing; i appreciate the worry.
coz it makes me so sure that ure fer me.

mm. sch TOTALLI sarks fer me on mondae.
jez imagine.
mondae blues. hard module and worst of all.
that sickening bitch larh.
tokking nothing but cock.
jez so wurtever.

meeting fer camp.
totalli redundant fer me.
stoning my way through.
and the boringg recee...
oh man. pls save me.. i dun wanna burn my saturdae! ):

but im scared nw.
scared of loosing you.
liek wurt happened in the past.
the feelings gone and all's over.
i hope that would neve happen.
neve.

ciaoz.

2005-04-25T18:39:00.000-07:00

sighs- wurt happend? wurt the hell happend.
i duno. i was jez talking my usual wae.
but are you unsure of my feelings fer you?
i wanna tell you that you need nort be.
coz i lurve u.

2005-04-24T23:42:00.000-07:00

mm. ive gort jez soo much to sae.
but when im faced wif this white screen,
im suddenly blanked. haa!

oh man... sch's killing. seriously mans. it has been studying and studying.
but yea.yr 2 life i guess.
charmaines gortta work hard. sighs-
imagine studying when im at hm. dats liek soo totalli nort me mans.
im turing into a GREEK...
and yea.. my facs! gortta decipher wurt they are talking also.
we dun understand her qsn and she keeps going on and on. blah blah blah.

oh yea..

happy bdae to you
happy bdae to you
happy bdae to qw
happy bdae to you!

dats my bdae song fer sd. hope u enjoyed the dinner, the walk and all, as much as i did okae. (:
thanks fer all the leetle things that uve done. really appreciated.

i wished everydae was ure bdae.
i hope we last. (:
bread.cakes.dinner.walk.
i lurve everytyme spend.

ciaoz.

2005-04-15T11:01:00.000-07:00

okae. its jez 2 more daes to sch.
argh.
ta0401. oh man. its high cans!
tink im gonna be later dan last tyme.
climbing 4 levels. haa!

sha de>>
whee!
nyte out wif u was darn farn larh.
soo nise to disturb u. hee.
thanks sha de fer everything.
ure jez so nise to me. ((:

ade>>
whoa. moussie finally gort to meet its owner le.
after liek hw long cans ):
mm. i'll bring u to work more often kae.

guess dats all.
haa! goin back to slp.

i wanna forget you*
i promise.
coz i lurve him.
i dun wanna hurt him.

ciaoz.

2005-04-12T13:19:00.000-07:00

i lurve POOH.
hahhaa.. coz he's soo sweet.

okae. counting dwn. 6 more daes to sch. haa!
whoa. charmaines sucha good gurl todae.
woke up at 11! SUPRISINGLY!!
coz daddy's at hm.. haa..

mm. yea. dun really understand those ppl.
facy cancelling things planned liek hw LONG AGO when u alr. noe that ure having another event the dae b4.
hw brainful larh. tsk.
and yea. the most impt part,
CANCELLING AT THE LAST MIN.
utterly inconsiderate. utterly.
wonder hw things wld turn out to be liek mans.
REALLY WONDER. GOOD LUCK.

silly>>
im so thankful fer having u in my life.
ure the sweetest and silliest. haa!
oh yea. so sorry u had to put up wif my nonsense yea.
thanks alort sd.!

ade>>
ade! muz promise to have tyme wif me okae.
haa! i dun care.
or i'll be JEALOUS of ure job.
hahahaa. *locks leetle fingers. ((:

FAINTS- everyone's working. )):
pearl.ivy.saysiang.adeline.meiwei.
cries.. dun forget CHARMAINE okae.

i wana forget you totalli.
i feel damn bad.
coz hes treating me liek hw well.
but i tink i really need tyme.
coz the tot of u really brings a smile.
sighs.
im sucha LOSER.
i dun deserve to be lurved mans.
fcuk.

ciaoz.

2005-04-10T13:52:00.000-07:00

[Chorus: 50 Cent & Olivia] [candy shop]
[50 Cent]I take you to the candy shop
I'll let you lick the lollypop
Go 'head girl, don't you stop
Keep going 'til you hit the spot (woah)

[Olivia]I'll take you to the candy shop
Boy one taste of what I got
I'll have you spending all you got
Keep going 'til you hit the spot (woah)

haa! im soo darn addicted to tis song larh.
so nise!
dat nise dat i cant resist but post it up.
((:
sexy song.

2005-04-09T11:14:00.000-07:00

life's definately nort a bed of roses.
i hate it when ppl close to me are dwn ):
it jez sarks big tyme.
i noe hw it feels and yea.
i understand consoling doesnt really make things better.
sighs-
i hate THURSDAY (070405).

ade>>
gurl. i dun wan u to be sad.
i dun wan you to shed another tear. EVER.
loads of ppl out dere lurve u okae.
i'll alwaes be dere fer you.
remember.
i lurve you. dun ever forget that.

sd>>
silly! u dun be sadded too okae.
i guess life's jez cant be perfect.
but i noe u can jia you.
ure my strong sha de.
lurve. (:

you*>>
i hope ure doing fine too.
i miss you.
jia you fer ure project le kae.
im sure u can do it. ((:
hope dat ure happy every single dae.

thanks silly fer ure utmost concern okae.
haa! appreciated.
ure my special silly angel.

ciaoz.

2005-04-06T10:51:00.000-07:00

haa! im up earli todae. darn bored so yea. BLOG.
goin ade's hse laytor before meeting pearl for elmo's bbq.
hahah. hw sweet can elmo ged larh.
booking chalet to celebrate his gurl's bdae. (:

HAPPY BDAE SHERILYN!

yea. was supposed to kayak todae.
but im aching all over.
sorry richmond. will go the next tyme kae.
deal.

sd. thanks fer being so understanding kae.
i wun let u dwn.
promise.
love (:

ciaoz.

2005-04-05T14:36:00.000-07:00

yayy! 3 stars over. everybody muz be chao tar and aching ryte. coz i seriously do.
but its worth it aint it everybodyy.
lets all work hard to the assesment okaeokae! (:
lurve u guys loads. and thanks all fer helping me in the roll okae!
the course was nise bonding session le.

you*>>
im so happy receiving ya text.
really.
i jez miz u carloadsandbusloadsandtruckloads larh.
sighs- i wanna see you.

SD*>>
im so glad to have you in my life.
i hope everything last long kae.
i dun wanna regret anything.
love. (:

oh wells. schs starting in like 2 weeks? thats liek hw fast ryte.
and we'll all be seperated to diff klazes alr.
and charmaine's gonna be considered an official year 2. tsk.
i still wanna continue slacking. hee.
i noe i cant tho.
books. here i cummm..
haa. sense my enthusiasm.
okae. im gonna enjoy my last 2 weeks..
MUAHHAH.

oh yea. wanna announce.
i miss all my frens!
can we mit up to dine together.
im dying to chat wif u guys mans.

im seriously at a lost.
im happy wif my sd. really. ure pressense really brightened up my life.
but tots of you* really stays in my mind.
i still cant ged over the happiness that i feel when i see u.
the smile that will jez appear unknowinly. uncontrollably.
i cant help it.
im sorry. im selfish.

ciaoz.

2005-03-29T21:39:00.000-08:00

mm. been preety busy this daes. haa! thus the irregular updates larh yea.
the highlight of last week was the 3 star course for me mans.
was totalli shagged larh. and the freaking sun. sighs- damn hot. makes me disfigured again with the awful sun burn. humph. dun understand wurts my SUNBLOCK doing cans!
but yayy! im glad ive gortten over my phobia of the capsizing and all.

CHARMAINES SOO GONNA PRACTICE HARD.

3star here i come. wheee..

wento sch to wash up all the tent and all. hhaaa. i jez lurve groundsheets + lorts of soap. ((:

damn farn to slide up and down cans! makes charmaine HIGH. haa! thats liek the nisest part of the washing up. yea. meeting. after dat dan chiong dwn to meet ade and ter. went cartel with twin elwin ade and ter.! hahaa.. hungry twin and elwin.

mm. drank alcoholic drinks while plaeing with cards. haa. me and twin were liek alr. having soo heavy heads larh. and we still kept losing. urgh! zhen shi de. plaed truth or dare. hahah. the dare were scandalous mans. but i guess we're okae wif it larh huh.

it was really liek a mini bonding session mans.

i miss u peeps! shall remain close okae. ((:

love.

okae. shall continue next tyme bah.

im gonna catch up on ma slp alr. haa. SLEEP.

ure my angel in disguise.

i lurve u.

i'll alwaes be there fer you. trust me.

ciaoz.

2005-03-22T20:35:00.000-08:00

charmaine's a happy gurl.
hopes it last.
((:
prays-

2005-03-20T17:44:00.000-08:00

yea. okae. back frm that jerangkang waterfall trek thingy. haha. the onli thing that we did most was WAITING larh. for all the sickening buses. urgh!! i lurve spore's bus service mans. its so darn efficient compared to msia. sat at the bus stop for liek an hr.
haa. okae. shall do a leetle update bout the trip larh yea.

sang at kbox wif pearl. (that vain gurl haa!) yea. imagine walking into cine and kbox wif the big bags.
went to sch.
departed into squeezy mrt trains.
queued for 170.
gorrta put up wif very rushy ppl at the customs.
slacked at larkin. yea, MAC was liek super cheap dere. hee ((:
waited for liek 3hrs for the bus. sians. haa. but in the mean tyme celebrated richmonds and james hatchdae larh. played wif oily cream. hmm.
travelled in the bus for 6hrs. hell longggg. butt ache.
haa. had a farn tyme wif pearl disturbing ppl larh. =]
waited for another bus for an hr. and yea. gortto take liek a lorry to that place.
haa. lurve the lorry rides larh. bumpy!!! damn nise. whoa-ing here and dere.
yea. plaeyed at the WATERFALL. DIVED IN. PUMPING WATER. PLAEING. ((:
had A&W on our wae back. hee. missed it. and yea. the root beer's addictive larh. cant stop drinking.hahhaa.. did i sae addictive? yea. i did. hahhaa. i mean it mans.
had sushi as dinner dere.
yea. thats bout it. ((:
oh yea. ive alort of pictures!!!... hahhaa.. im a photo freak. muahaha.
haa. i miss the gangg!! shall hang out next tyme soooon okae.
lurve.

isit tyme to really give up
to really ged on wif life.
i duno.
whie isit those that catches my atten.
alwaes ends up to be onli my fren. whie.
i give up.
but i cant deny the fact that its the unkown broad smile that jez spread out.
when its the you i see.

ciaoz.

2005-03-15T22:50:00.000-08:00

wheeee.... 1 dae to the trip. haa! damn excited larh. spending sum tyme wif pearl dat busy gurl. urgh!! cant steal any tyme frm her )=
hmm. was towning ard wif sis ytd, yaayyy! liek finally after sooo long. (emphasised)!
and oh! ive gort my hands on a digital cam!... hahhaa. damn happy larh.! din noe i lurve taking pictures soo much. haa ((: my zhi lian-ess is acting up. buddies gortta bear wif me okae.
mm. went to siloso beach wif ade todae..! haa.. cant consider it a tanning session for mi larh.. im nort dark at all... wahhaa! but ade was liek damn red. farnie gurl larh. i bring u to beach wear shopping next tyme okae.?
and i wanna take more PICTURESSSS.....
mm. okae. ade wanna see my post NW.
see, i finished it by todae nyte. * proud*

ciaoz.

2005-03-12T15:45:00.000-08:00

whie am i shy ass. )=
i wanna go out wif u.
i wanna go soo mani places wif u. -sighs.
i hoped u lieked the cookie i gave u.
its liek thats the last tyme i can see u
and ive gortta wait 6 weeks. more dan a mth.
i miss u.

its jez in me. and i cant stop it. i lurve u* and dats it.
i wanna haf the courage to ask u* out. pls.

yeps! reckoned its quite a while since ive blogged yea. hmm. ytd was liek officially the last dae of sch for the annual yr. and yes. I MISS U TN0303. the songs.the craps.the bombardings.the ponnings.and yea. the cs-ing.! i'll definately miss all these. cries- i realli hope that i'llve as nise klazmates as u guys for next yr. ((:

adeline-meiwei-xiaowei-amy-tv-shuba-shye-liza-mel-liz-cherlin-erandi

terence-tedsis-vincent-elwin-vincent-kimpoh-weihau-helmi-raj-gabriel-daniel-shenyang-yongren

its a long list but i'll rem. each and everyonee... =)

mm. decided to take the pharm. elective! shall giv it a try larh. altho its liek cfm plus duno hw mani chops dat its gonna be damn hard. i guess it means its less hanging here and dere but moreee bookkkksss.. haah! so yea. enjoy hard this holis..! wahhah.
oh yea. charmaine is liek recently hooked onto cs larh. wahha. darn farn. but luckily its liek the end of the sem. alr! or else my grades wld be sucha gonner by nw! haa.
thanks to gab.kp.ade.ter. for plaeing that dae! haha. really helped mi aimed much better! ((: hey.! we muz continue to plae even if were in diff class okae. promise yea!

haa! catched boogeyman on thurdae. oh man. its scary larh. but i wanna watch again coz we've missed liek 40mins of the show? hhaha.. (ade are u guilty). and the farnie part was liek we both din understand wurt the show was about and whie the show was onli an hr. and andd... yea. whie there was no one at the entrance collecting tix. when its alr. tyme! all because of the fact that sumone's watch was 30mins slower! hahahahaha.. cant stop luffing lahr. okae. shall nortgo on. ade might beat mi when she sees mi next tyme. so for my safety.shall nort tok. haa!

yea! im damn excited bout the waterfall trip tingy mans. the intinery seems liek soo farn. hahha. but its rather short larh! but nvm. i ged to spend tyme wif pearl! haha, that soo busy gurl. but too bad ivy cant go )=. mm. lets all 3 go k-lunch b4 mi and pearl go can?
haa.. i wanna hug u. ding dongs.!!
oh. ive borrowed cam frm my aunt. hahha. which means we can snap and snap alr..!!! oh man. i cant wait mans... dying to take pics! heeeee..(((:

zqw. im realli dissappointed in my frenship wif u mans. its liek so obvious that sumthing's happend in ya life. but whie cant u jez sae it out. okae. fine. ure alwaes saeing that ure jez tired and all. but dan wurts ya nic bout than? i can onli sae im dissappointed. nvm. be assured that i wun ask anymore. simply because even if its a clap u need 2 hands. ive been trying to console. but its REDUNDANT.

enjoy ya holis peeps! takkaire. =)
ciaoz.

2005-03-07T15:08:00.000-08:00

i neve knew wurt it was liek to look at sumone
and smile fer no reason
holding to a dream that wont cum thru
somethings in life are worth waiting for ;
even if it means waiting.

ilurveu
ilurveu
ilurveu

but my life's all messed up.

2005-03-04T23:10:00.000-08:00

i wann to be a kai xin ren! ):

mm. jez felt liek blogging suddenly. haa! quite rare larh. this kindof of feeling.
erm. i jez feel very urgh! i duno larh. but the feelings sarky. i feel at a lost. but i cant really pinpoint wurt im lost about. its everything i guess.sighs-

schs the same. with the very tired me- everydae falling asleep liek a pig on the bus and all. yea! hanged out wif the gang on thurs. since liek trainings nort on. liek forever nort on. i duno whie. nobody seems enthu to go larh.
mm. but were tired so we had dinner at sum fast food joint as usual and had desert at this international building thingy which elmo recommended. haa! which was darn expensive larh... my pockets soo soo dry!
hmm. tink i gortta scrimp and save alr. or else im really gonna go broke mans. =(

im soo confused. tired of everything
people change and dats liek a soo saddening fact . coz its for the worse.
or maybe its jez a facade that ive alwaes been seeing until nw.
i duno.

and yea, i so agree. shameless bitch.
i noe power is wurt u wan larh.
seriously i dun giv a damn .
i dun wanna hear ur orders. i dun.

i feel so f. up

ohoh. but thanks buds. for alwaes being there for me. im soo thankful that ure dere for me when i needed u all. i realli hope u all can understand my position in the matter okae. ((: i swear that i wun be liek them. promise. *locks fingers
i wannn tyme wif u all ... screamms!

ciaoz.

2005-03-04T11:25:00.000-08:00

blogger sarks larh. see my date. -sighs

good luck for ya o's
you can do it.
jia yous.

those who have done nort so well.
dun giv up okae.
never giv up on yaself.
try hard again.
lifes nort a bed of roses. =]

2005-02-23T22:20:00.000-08:00

damn pissed wif their attitudes.
yea. they're so called the higher ups.
but can they do without ppl liek us.
fark their attitude mans.
i dun use this words. but yea, im real pissed.
dun cum running to us when u need us.
whie muz dere be sucha distinct line? i dun understand.
is leftout wurt u wan us to feel? since u noe that this is happening.
come on larh.
been hanging out much with adel. lately! hhaa.. two crazi gurls combing the streets. i tink shes turn off by the sight of me nw. haven stopped irritating her every min we're together. but wells. i dun care... haa.. ((:
ive been into fitting rooms of various shops lately. stupid adel. still wans mi to try sticky tops. wahhha!!! but i lurve topshops rooms. hahhaa.. so cool larh. so big. can try together and luff at hw silly we looked. hee. andyea. zhi lianings in front of that big wall mirror. oh mans.. i wanna ged my digital cam larhs. dan i can snap and snap.! -winks
ohoh. and i finally agreed to take neoprints wif you u noe.! hahaha. after ure pleasings for duno hw mani tymes... hahaa.. adel. pls me more larh. dan i take wif u. wahhaa. i guess u wanna bit mi up alr. ryte... wo yao ta ni.! lolsss.

hmm. schs preety much the same wif boring facs and all. sighs-
im soo stressed up wif the star 3 course thingy. actually im scared too larh. i mean yarh. i noe im the rep. and i really wanna take the course damn badly. but my skills sarks. ive gort the stamina for long distances. but wurts the damn point larh. ): whie on earth did i develop that phobia. im dissapointed wif myself. i wanna train hard. force myself to ged all the strokes and the rescues done.! ive gortto newae. dun wanna let myself dwn. hiaz.
charmaine's lousy but i shall try my best.!

ohoh.. and its been a LONG tyme since i catch a movie larh. its weird tho. im alwaes hanging here and dere but din catch movies de. broke. haha.. but i wanna catch constantine and hide and sick leh. who wanna watchhh?.... haha.
i wanna be urs.
its jez a dream.
my feelings for you* have never ever change since the day i fall.
i wanna screammm...
i wanna go for brainwash. =(

yay. im damn happy todae!
but i mis u badly.
is it fated that u cant see my ims?
-cries. and din even see u in sch.
but yay. saw u at the last min.
:)) enuff. tho. it was damn far.

hahaa.. okae. julie's chocolate lurve letters are jez soo nise. im hooked u to it.
ohoh. i wanna eat that chocolate cake frm that duno wurt stall opp. the tacopachi thingy at taka leh. hahhaa. sudden craving.
anibodi wanna ged 4 mi?? haaa..

ciaoz.
ms charmaine. (was trying out the colours =])

2005-02-15T22:33:00.000-08:00

im hurting so bad

its shatteringly aching

when shd i let it go? i realli wanna noe.

coz im falling deeper each dae. so deep dat im scared.real scared that i cant make it out one dae.

maybe i shdnt even have tried to pin hopes. but ive pinned

and here im nw weeping all by my lonesome self.

pls. do nort try interpreting the leetle text. it makes no sense unless u noe.

valentine's dedication.-

wurt in life keeps mi goin? i realli wanna noe. but i wanna sae. FRENSHIP is the one for me. its ma essence. and i treasure it ryte to the very end. i lurve u frens. and i mean it.

pearl&ivy: dearie. i lurve u so much. dat its unmeasurable. its jez the pressence. the heart to heart toks and the no secret between us that makes me feel so lurved, so cherished. presents doesnt matter u noe. so u all duned to feel bad bout it okae. ya frenship is alr. wurt a wonderful pressie.

steamboats.tanning.blading.pictures.burping.wurtevering.nics.luffing.shouting.bitching

i lurve ani thing. as long as its done wif u! :))

twin: thanks 4 understanding mi. consoling mi when im in need for it. its hard to find ppl liek you. ((:

xuanie: dearest gurlie!!. i miz u mans. muakz (x100000000000) okae. ure ma soul mate. understanding my every tots and feelings. distance doesnt make our bond weaker. it doesnt at all. i feel that same affection everytyme we mit up. it neve changes. for its dere in my heart.planted. newae. goood things will turn ya wae okae. deres alwaes mi here for u okae!. jia you!

ade: mm. hey! new good fren. haa, thanks for accompanying me out. and hearing me rant on and on yea. haa.. and all those phone toks. altho its jez the usual crap. hee..

and yea, those nort mentioned,i lurve u all too okae.! =]

-dats my dedication to all!

mm. yea. im so dry nw after valentine's day. haa.. been busy wif gedding stuffs for the gurls and also trying ma hands on baking. and yea. it onli became presentable on the 4th attempt. the first 3 tymes were liek realli charred. reckoned that mummi's help is undispensable larh. hahhaa.. it turned out lookin nise but was liek stone mans. haa! shant comment animore.

tue.- went to elmo's hse wif the gurls and sher.! whoa. had hell loads of farn mans. i wanna ged that steamboat machine thingy too. soo nise to eat wif that dat. reali feels liek mini reunion dinner? =] but i ate soo much dat im soo guilty. haa.. pearl we've gorrta run many rounds alr.! and yea. slacked ard after dinner. see wurt i mean by guilty? ate soo much and jez slacked ard. haa! and yea. i was soo lazi to go hm. oh man. i wanna stay over! hahahaa.. sooo farn.

mm. next tyme cum ma hse stay okae! shall have lorts of food too. hee..

shd i care? shd i realli care?

arent best frens supposed to share their feelings? regardless of its up or downs?

i reali dun understand.

i wanna bear ya load. at least tell mi when ure sad.

i realli wanna be dere for u

u cant imagine hw it is when u hear sth bout ya bestfren frm someone else.

and u noe nth bout it. nth.

i wanna be dere for all my besties. but u dun allow mi.

its deteriorating, realli.

i realli place frenship above all.

and im realli hurt at tymes when u ppl think that shes all that i care.

i swear its nort.

im trying hard to ged over. but i ned tyme

my world jez sarks. big tyme. =(

2005-02-12T02:26:00.000-08:00

wahhaa... oh my! im jez soo friggin happi after chatting wif her dat ive jez gortta blog it dwn here. 1 sentence also can alr. wheeeeeeeee! =] (x10000000)

ciaoz

2005-02-10T15:16:00.000-08:00

HAPPI CHINESE NEW YR everyoneeeeeee............
okae.. i promise that dis will be a LONG post yea =]
blogging is jez so weird.! i mean liek i cum online wif sooo much things in ma head...and when i see this blogger box, i cant even think of wurts the first thing that i wanna blog dwn! oh man...

mm. yea. its the start of the 1 week of holis alr!. but dan.. to mi, its a YAY and nort a YAY. the yay part is of coz i duned to wake up earli and to travel sucha sickening journey to sch. but the dwn part is i cant see her*... cant accidentally bump into her 4 one week cans! its sucha long tyme 4 mi lahr.. =(

oh! wenta ecp on sundae to learn hw to blade wif the gurls! took sucha long tyme to ged dere mans. im such a lu chi lahr.. and that cab driver gorta scold mi sumore. humph! cant scold mi ryte.. i dunno hw to direct u cans! oh yea, and charmaine look preety dumb on the blades larh.. becoz of all the uncontrollable moves and the falling down hard on ma butt, hah! it hurts mans. i gortta kneel dwn on the ground 4 sum tyme b4 trying to stand up again. and yea, suffered sum butt-ache da next dae- cant help it i guess. but dan, at least i can blade aleetle? =] wheee.....!!

mm. today was preety much boring. and its chu yi cans! but dan i neve enjoyed cny larh. i mean liek im nort close to ma relatives and all. its jez the hi and bye. haha.. but whoa.. ma cousins all damn tall, i reckon its a long tyme since i saw them. ma cousin brought her doggie along, i was liek avoiding and avoiding it mans. cant wait to go! the dog's hyper! *grins
ohoh! but i had lorts of shark fin! liek much more dan wurt i ate during weddings? but im guilty. coz the sharks ged killed jez 4 their fins. =(
mm. cny is definately making mi fat larh! gortta hit the tracks soon. i mean liek the onli thing that i do when visiting is jez sit there and stare at the tv and munch on everything! oh gawd.!! and ma tummy's geding soo dwn mans. coz of all the food i ate. dats call zhi zhuo zhi shou i guess. but da foods all soo yummicious; its been long since i had such nise food. hmm. dats a reason whie its good to be in sch ; coz da food sarks and i wun feel liek eating all da tyme. haa! im crazi. ignore. but da best thing's the red packets of coz! im running dry alr... hahah.

oohh!!! next mon's is valentines day! haa! im excited larh. its da first tyme im baking! wheeyouweeet... *winks.. hahha.! prays that it'll be a success yea. nort sum chao tar piece of chocolate brick.
mm. okae. shall return to ma recently borrowed to kill a mocking bird! hhhaa.. im definatlely suffing frm stm larh.. cldnt rem. the characters. gortta keep refering back. humph!
ciaoz.

u took my heart away
i duno whie the feeling is jez soo strong.
its the adrenaline rush that i feel every single tyme. and its realli EVERY single tyme that i see her
its that unknown smile that will spread across ma face after receiving every text that she sends.
and the increasing heart beat that will jez pound when the name that appears on the text is her.
it might be jez simple minute actions or words but it brightens up ma dae unconditionally.
its the unusual tongue-tied-ness that the talkative mi feels when i see her.

2005-01-31T16:06:00.000-08:00

okae! m in klaz having culture and com. ! its sians as usual. but dan again.. life in school is much better nowadays. hahaa... at least we have soccer after the 2nd meeting..! that realli perk mi up larh.. all those running about and all. whoa.. and its good for all of us too... u noe can liek jian fei! especially when chinese new yr is cuming and all.. yeps!

haha.. okae. decided to continue wif this post which ive started 1 week ago. lazi mi as usual.
mm. training on thursdae was realli farn. had soccer wif the sch gurls and all the chatting wif the dearies. =] but i miss IKEA hotdogs.! liek everyone was lazi to go dere lahr.. but yea, can understand tho. coz dat place realli nort shun lu. but we shall go dere this week ryte gurls!.. haha.. *winks

hmm. wento geylang to have beef noodles wif dan. & ade. hahaa... it tasted jez as nise mans! jez lurve it.. *slurps.... i m craving 4 it nw.. =[ hhaa. mmm. i tot that i gort to know dan. more lahr.. i mean liek noe him much better dan last tyme altho. yea. we're on da same klaz. hah! realised that the proverb cant judge a book by its cover its true.. haha. alwaes tot that he was those ah bengs kinds... haha. sori arh dan.!

weekends is sians! no kayaking, jez finished all ma VCD's. hahaa.. have been hooked onto the show " stairwae to heaven" . oh my! super nise but alort of sadded part leh. haa! wonder hw i can study ma ut when ive gorttan hold of the whole set of VCD. and its SCI. for god sake. F's da grade mans. =[

ivy: hey dearie.. bout ya phone. dun sadded okae! mm. i reali cant think of hw to cheer u up leh.. jez consoling u her yea. cheer up okae! charmsy here! =]

darlinks: mm. can i sae dat both of ya pressence is liek super much and ultra much appreciated? cant realli find a word to express ma happiness to have both of u all. ure alwaes dere when im down to cheer mi up. and alwaes dere to hear ma rantings and understanding mi! thanks a million. lurve u all .. muakss... hee..

oh man!.. i noe nuts bout todays lesson. probelm solving.! totalli canort make it. super sleepy. and im having diarrhoea. =(
hmm. tml shall be a better dae i hope! yeah! charmaine muz jia you. YES.

"I'll never be the one who lies next to you at night, I'll never be the one you dance with and hold ever so tight, I'll never be the one who wipes the tear from your cheek, I'll never be the one who watches you as you sleep. I'll never be the one you plan the future with, I'll never be the one you greet with a kiss, I'll never be the one you walk with in the rain, I'll never be the one but i'll love you just the same"

ciaoz.

2005-01-23T23:32:00.000-08:00

okae.. decided to do at least sth be for retiring to bed AGAIN. shall emphasise the word again larh. i guess sunday's the slackiest day fer 4 mans. i feel so fat on sundays! ...the onli thing i do is eat and slp.jez imagine i woke up jez to have breakfast and went back to bed larh..oh man..!

mm. last week was a preety short week. had school 4 onli 4 daes. had a leetle klaz outing cum bonding session on fridae. wento dis k-ster at chinatown to sing sing, hahha. act. i was pondering if i shd go lahr... thank god i went mans. it was so much farn! ohoh.. the last part was the best! everybody was damn high dao!... and i rem. we sang mamma mia! whoa.. gortta admit dat daniel's voice super loud cans! he can be louder dan the mike de! thumbs up-headed dwn to have pool. hahaha. i finally managed to learn how to plae mans! =] thanks ppl for teaching mi yea!

yea! finally had kayaking on sat.! YAY! but i neve tried ani of ma skills tho. i guess the expedition has totalli worned all of us out. it was actually onli a mere 8km journey, but i tell u. it was muderous! the wind and the tide was all against us and it was damn hard to ged the kayaks to go straight, and yea sum of the member's morale was damn dwn larh... i noe, coz they couldnt keep up. mm. okae we shall practice more often okae peepos! =] *nods head. dun fang qi yea!jia you..i was happy but yet dissapointed wif maself. but i tink its more of dissapointed larh. coz liek i wanna do that eskimo resue thingy de. but i dun dare lahr.-sighs. whie cant i overcome ma phobia!i m so lousy. i can paddle well and fast. but i cant ged the skills over and done wif! wth.mm. and yeps! went dwn to geylang wif the kayaking khakis.! whoa.. the amount of cars there is crazy larh.. u cant even cross the roads lorh.. definately worse dan orchard rd mans! hhaha. yea. i guess thats the case when deres soo much good food and night activities*! had the beef noodles! oh my gawd.. its really undescribly nise larh... cant think of anithing that is comparable to it!

after dinner, i insisted on walking into the alleys to have a look at the nyte happenings*! and yea, i m shocked lahr.. coz the gurls were liek all standing in a line and were sort of modling dere, waiting for customers. i really wanna noe if wurt they do nw is really for $ or are there other reasons behind it. i mean liek they are so preety mans, im sure they can easily ged a decent job lorh. seeing them dis wae i sort of feel sad 4 them larh. i jes cant help it. whie is the world filled wif so much sorrow?? but ppl liek mi, leading such a good life dun even noe hw to appreciate it?

i guess in life there are preety much things u wanna do. but u cant. and the hardest part is accepting it. the facts jez keep plaeing over and over again in ya mind and that is nort within our control. but dan again.. thats life. wurts urs is urs to keep and wurts nort urs will neve ever be. im alwaes sad because of a major thing*. but i learnt that i gortta let it go. i wanna feel more happiness dan saddness. and im onli crawling towards ma goal. i wanna stop. but i JEZ cant. i lurve it to much to let go.but charmaine shall strive for da best.

however, i feel super blessed with such nise frens ard mi! thanks peeps for alwaes being there to add colours to ma world. i simply lurve u all to bits. and darlinks.. u all made ma world go ROUND!..
okae.. i m lookng forward 4 soccer tml! whee....... its so gonna be farn!
shall snooze soon.
ciaoz.

2005-01-18T15:45:00.000-08:00

i m feeling so down.
i duno whie.
jez hate life! sarks.

2005-01-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

mm. okae shall have a short one here yea, b4 i retreat.
hmm. life's been preety much da same larh. its seriously liek a routine! sch. hrs are liek soo friggin long mans. wth!
haha. im getting along fine wif her larh. happi enuff alr.=]
but im worried. liek im fallin hard for sumone i shouldnt even consider and i noe. but i cant control larh.
im blaming yet cant blame.
My joy upon seeing her is jez so great.
so great that even im getting worried for myself.
But dan again, shes the 1 and onli 1 that has made mi feel this special wae.
Can I be ya valentine?- I wish

2005-01-15T19:21:00.000-08:00

T I R E D.s da word to describe wurt im feeling everydae larh. i guess 24hrs a dae is jez simply too short? hah. im alwaes feeling sleep deprived.-cries-
and yea. dat wld jez affect ma performance in klaz. realli wanted to participate in alwin's lesson. but i was jez simply too tired; couldnt ged maself toking and thinking. liek dan saddening fact. but its all ma fault in the end. argh.. charmaine's gortta wake up and ged working mans. i wanna ged 3 for ma gpa. =(

mm. todae was a rather farn dae larh. but it started out sarky. the idea of waking up liek at 530 in the morning turned mi off TOTALLY! and as usual. i nearly slept past ma stop. mm. i seriously think im gonna slp past ma stop 1 day. trust me. i'm such an unlucki gurl. cant be dat lucki everytyme. okae. went for that tsunami flag dae thingy with twin. ter. mel. liz. shye. vincent.! figured i should do a leetle part for all those ppl out dere sufferng yea.
ohoh and YAY! i finalli get to eat ma beacurd at geylang! haha. im damn happi. coz liek as u noe.. i m a lu chi! cant go alort of place. and yea. morever its in geylang, hah. cant afford to ged lost in dere ryte? and yeps. headed dwn to bugis to continue wif the donation.
mi twin and ter. went to that famous temple and yea. mi and twin shook the lots thingy? mm. i also duno wurts it called. haha. newae, thats our first tyme shaking. wahahah. was suprised that ter. knew much more dan us larh. and the farnniest thing was twin's one couldnt come out. ( hmm. twin! dun sadded okae. i guess its jez nort tyme 4 u to noe that yet.yeps! shall pei u go next tyme okae=]) erm. ive gort an average lot and i decided to keep it larh. since its ma first tyme doing it!

oh yarh. wento dine at chinasquare wif ter. and ade! hhaa. tried rotiboy for the first tyme. wow. damn nise lahr! mm. wonder if she* will liek dat...

k a y a k e r s
hahaa. peeps! ma hands are as itchy as urs larh. okae! we will go kayaking next saturdae okae. its a promise yea. wahhaa. darlinks!!! buffet after kayaking okae! mm. i m alr. feeling excited lahr; when it comes to food. -grins
oh yea. but i lurve kayaking as much as i hate it too larh.
whie cant i ged over that phobia that i have?? eventhough i did try soo mani tymes and did some readup on it. i wanna nu li. but i cant. u noe that kindof feeling jez sarks big tyme=(
and yea. heard that ive gortta take star 3. oh my!... i wanna take badly. but i cant even ged ma star 2 skills done. i jez feel so shity when i think about it. whie can ma frens do it and i cant. i m such a failure.

lastly. dear sister!! pls dun make daddy and mummy angry liaos cans! u noe they dun liek that and ure alwaes doing all that. dun tok about them; im also rather pissed off larh.
newae. studies shd be ya prioriy nw. but dan again, alls up to u. im FINE if ure hacking all ive said. i jez dun wanna regret nort telling u.

i cant hope for more. i noe.
jez being able to be silently dere. its enuff
but im tired. realli tired
its devouring ma heart awae slowly.
but i cant jez make maself giv up
da feeling is alwaes dere.
-prays hard

hope everythingy goes well for everyone out dere! and yea. i hope the doctor wun sae anithing bad about ma gastric. im jez scared to noe the results. and a knee too.-sighs-
its been sucha long entry. shall stop.

ciaoz.

2005-01-13T13:16:00.000-08:00

yea. m in SCI klaz nw larh.. figured i shd ged some blogging done!.. but i cant seem to rem wurt is happening in ma life nowadaes larh.

oh YES! its steamboat with my darlinks! =] whahaa. i was damn high larh. u cant blame mi since its ma first tyme ryte!.. and yea. realised that the prawn will jump jump when cooked de. oh my! hahha.. thanks guys! i really enjoyed ma tyme to the fullest!! -big hug-
mm. guess ive eaten too much larh.. diarrhoea when i gort hm cans! but nevetheless. i still lurve it!...

yea. i wanna go 4 dat YEP! but dan again.. its liek selection will be done and i wonder if daddy would allow larh. but well. its june alr... shd be fine larh yea. shyt. sounds liek im consoling maself cans! ahhaa. and yea! pearl arh.. ya hair's damn cute lahr. dun worry okae! =] haha. newae tink we realli xin you lin xi larh. hahaa. ask each other the same exact qsn when we came online. wheee.... i hope we can go together okae -prays-

YES! i hate studying larh. its liek hard work dun pays of de. =(
twin and mi liek actually mugged 4 da friggin sci. ut larh. but i seriously regretted! it sarks. didnt even noe how todo the qsn cans!

oh yea. and smarts*! dun brood over that monach talk thingy okae! ure smart rem.! work hard and u can do it de okae! =] jia you.

ookae. shall continue wif sci. nw. boring is the word to describe!
ciaos.

2005-01-10T21:00:00.000-08:00

i changed ma skin larh. feels liek having sth plain! yea. gorttan by wif the first week of sch. highlight was graceys birthdae larh. haha. twin and i was super tied dwn hanging out in town.. to ged a auitable pressie.! whahaa. tink weve gort nise taste larh.!..

to twin: i m soo happy that ure finally back close to her again!. i mean liek yea. i guess u understand larh. u can read ma mind de! mm.. the pressie;s all damn sweet.=] ! and needless to sae she lieks it liek hell alr. hhaha.. as for the guy, i tink u did da ryte thing twin!. altho. he'l be hurt.. but dan again.. at least hes nort falling deeper and deeper. and yarh.. many things jez cant go da wae u want them to larh. agree? and yea. theres this thing dat i think we both gortta ged into our heads. altho. it'l be damn super sad 4 us. i noe....[ mm. its dat. we gortta pick ourselves up if things dun go da wae we wan okae! * we shall promise each other okae
and yea. i'll alwaes be dere 4 u de!=] dun be afraid of lonliness. theres mi!

to ter. : hey! its nise to see u cheer up todae. i hope its nort jez an act okae. =] uve gort mi!. life has to go on okae. lets all cheer up.

mm. i'm preety dwn nowadaes larh. i jez hate maself for falling deeply, when i noe that its utterly impossible. but its jez da sight or a simple msg. dat alwaes manages to make ma dae. but i cant possibly make things go da wae i wan.. nevetheless. i neve regreted all of these. i'll still choose da same path if i hadda choose again or even again.yeps!

and nw. its ma sis. again.! whie cant she tell mi da truth, or even let mi noe wurts happening in her life. i feel so lousy and i really dun understand.. when i tell her every single stupid or crazy things dat past by in ma life.=[

yea. i cant help but feel so lonely at tymes liek this. its liek im at a total loss. coz i cant jez go to ma parents and pour all these out ryte!.. and ma sis is alwaes busy wif him*. I NOE. i cant compare to him. and this feeling jez sarks big tyme.

but i noe. ive gort great frens that i can count on. and i so thankful of that. -prays-
hopes that things will jez turn out fine.

its 9. tyme for rying?.. and sickening sci. revision. *shucks
ciaoz.

2005-01-04T00:47:00.000-08:00

!!! back to blog larh. tink i m lagging alr.
mm. its jez the 2nd dae of sch and i m liek zombified when i walk to sch alr. oh no!

yea.. its a new year. but the starting of the year totalli SARKS!
i hate seeing the news. the dead bloated bodies. unorganised governments. sighs*
mm. yea and ma buddy is affected by it larh. its hes tuition kid!
and yea. i understand the grief boy! but we've gort to be strong okae! jia you.

gonna make chocomellows for all ma peeps. i hope its nort a failure larh.=]
hhaaa.. its goona sure taste damn nise! wahhaa...
oh yea.. darlinks arh. i looking forward to our trip! haha..

mm. i realli dun understand ma sis larh. hello.. jez forget him! i noe its hard. but i rather u do nw dan continue bringing pain to yaself mans. ure tears are nort worth for that sickening asshole for god sake okae! and yea. i wanna voice out! i realli dun understand another point larh. whie isit that u muz alwaes hide frm mi the fact that u are seeing him or goin out wif him? its liek i tell u every single thing that is happening in ma life and ure hidding awae frm mi. wells, i m hurt. but yea. its ya choice ultimately. i cant control ya life. i can onli tell u.

i lurve u to bits mans.
i really do.

2004-12-30T23:36:00.000-08:00

life is so fragile.
the tsunami jez ended so mani life.
i feel that i shd jez treasure ma simple life frm nw on.
to those who have lost their lurve ones.
ma deepest condolences and ma heart goes out out to all of u.

2004-12-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

i feel so happi. but dwn at da same time.
whie do i alwaes feel that ure so cold to mi nw?
is it because of wurt i sae.
if it is. i totalli regreted.
i came up wif lorts of excuses to deceive maself.
but i guess. its jez a bigger and bigger wall of facade that i m building 4 myself.

2004-12-29T22:54:00.000-08:00

wahaha. been watching movies 4 2 consecutive daes larh. but luckily its on da 650 daes instead of those 850 daes. lol! ohoh.. phantom of the oprea realli rawks mans. i tell u all.... seriously nise! wahhaa. it sooo nise!!.. the whole show was liek a super long song? haha. they hardly talk. they sing! how unique of a movie! =]
mm. when out wif the kayaking peeps!.. whoa. was damn fun! missed them alort since theres no kayaking recently. hhaa..oh yea. that tyr sale damn friggin cheap larh.. coldnt resist that goggles. whhaha. went to town as per usual and yea. we ate alort of things lahr.. hhaaa.. and the ice-cream was the highlight mans!!.. haha... rasberry is niiiisse!... took alort of pics too! wahah. the 3 musketers? hack the spelling okae! hah.
mm. these few daes damn fun!!!.. but yea. schs starting.. sobs.
shall end here dan. lazi to type..
ciaoz.

confessed.
hope things turn out fine.

2004-12-26T06:00:00.000-08:00

yea. back! hows da skin everyone? newae belated [x] [m][a][s] to all out dere! mm. schs starting soon mans. tink da main highlight is dat ophir trip!.. wahha. was real suprised how much closer i gort to the peeps larh.
wah.. i wana ged digital cam! whie muz it be dat ex. de. *pouts
i wanna take pics wif all ma darlinks! mm. i mis ma sec. sch darlinks busloads! but yea. i caught up wif ma dearest darlink ytd!. we chatted liek dere was no tml. wahhaa.
[xuan]: hey gurlo. i realli agreed wif wurt u sae in ya leetle note dat u wrote to mi larh. its soo sweeet of u! and yea. ure alwaes close to ma heart de. wahhaa. i lurve u yea!. i look super forward to see u mans.

mm. i wanna eat geylang beancurd.. bring mi dere leh. and i wanna watch phantom of the oprea too! wahha. enjoy the last bit b4 sch starts yea.=]

ive alwaes cherished ma thoughts of u.
but i alwaes wonder too if it was jez a wishful thinking on ma part.
i often choose to look on the bright side. i really hope that its true!
i hate maself for nort having the courage to tel u.
yea. thats the creature i m.

2004-12-04T22:15:00.000-08:00

=] i guess the proverb "man is neve satisfied" is true for mi. but liek wurt choice do i have ryte?
mm.. sch's out. and i can finally wake up late marns. but yarh... the bad thing is i can neve ged to bump into her in sch!. but,.. yes! i m alreadi damn happi to chat wif her larh. but i guess she'll neve eve noe that its her. but well.. im CONTENTED. i dun wanna risk telling her. i rather have frenship rather dan none! =]

yea! i'l mis twin too!...but we'll see each other during trainings yea! wahha.. i m excited about the nyte outing twin!..
wenta liza's cacoon and yeps. was nise lahr.. the food, the atmosphere! was great!.. leaving out the watermelon would be better. hahaha
i'll miz klaz! but definately nort lesson.
i dun hav anything to sae lahr! (cries out loud) TAG ma board peeps. its dying. yea.
ciaoz.

2004-12-01T11:28:00.000-08:00

hmm.. okae. i m back ta blog!.. since its VB nw and i m a gonner larh...soo.. shall blog a loong one!
went to cheryl's wedding on sat.! oh ma god! she is gorgeous larh.... and haha.. did i sae, her husband is those cute face types!... mm. it was the first church wedding that i attended and hah realised that they do have alort of prayers! but da nise part was when the sae "I do" hhaa.. they look blissed! congrates!.. haha.. yiwen was cute larh. she was in dress! hmm.. but i 4ged to take a pic!..and yarh.. xiao wei's liek soo preety ! dat i thought she was the bridesmaid! haha

spend da rest of the dae wif twin and ter. lahr! haha.. had that beancurd thingy at geylang!.. oh my.. was damn nise larh. i wanna go again! but i wonder when's da next time. hmm.. enjoyed the view at the place outside the indoor stadium and had sum heart toks larh. and yarh.. the most memorable thing was the taking of that pirate ship thingy larh!.. i was damn scared i tell u. twin was brave.. haha... didnt even scream. and i was the onli person screaming ma lungs out.. ahha.. ppl was luffing at mi marns.!

mondae's twin hatch dae! gort her a ring! haha... we couldnt decide which to take.. so in the end, draw lots. haha.. we are L A M E. but well, dats us! hahaa...
hmm.. ophir's training is gedding tougher and tougher! its 3.6 click and 5 times up 12 storeys!.. i wanna jia you!
hmm... priceless!.. uve been sucha great help to mi! thanks 4 bothering to! =]
haha.... ure damn cute lahr... i still remember u saeing ur the cutest smartest and sexiest pig!

hmm.. okae! i m falling asleep in klaz nw marns!.. cant help it tho.
and ma greenie turtle cant stand larh... and twin's one can! haha... nort fair.. and yarh! fine! twin saes mine is fatter. hhaa..
okae.. shall sleep ler
ciaoz.

2004-11-21T20:09:00.000-08:00

whoa! she initiated chatting wif mi cans! liek i m so suprised and at da same time damn happi larh=)... mm but whie do i have to 4ged bringing hm ma charger?.. liek i ended up having to go marns... liek when she toked to mi.. dan i have to go? mm... but newae.. juz noeing da fact that she initiated to tok is alreadi a good thing!
mm... recently the kayaking khakis have gone alittle hyper?.. haha.. we wenta plae arcade games,watch shutter at 1215am.. was freaky marns... i m scared larh... kept screaming! but at least m nort the onli one.. i can hear other ppl screaming too!.. dan walked all da wae frm tampiness to pasir ris! haha.. was crazy larh.. liek 4 ppl walking in da dark wif rather big bags... luckily dere were no police on patrol! haha and guess wurt! we all slept at da bus interchange? LOL.. but i gort stug by alort of mosquitos!..
mm... slept 4 onli an hr lahr.. gortta mit da rest and headed for prssc!.. whee! da club was nise and big marns.. we went ard in da sea picking up litters!.. hhaa.. i tink its rather fun larh.. but for republicans, i wonder if its litter picking dae or jelly fish searching larh huh!... i tink its friggin gross... but they can still scoop it up!..yucks!.. haha..
the hands-breaking part was the expedition larh.. liek 6km?.. against the current sumore! i m shagged marns!.. but was fun larh.. mm.. but ma eyelids cant stop feeling heavy marns.. liek i go where i slp where cans!.. on da train.. on da bus! LOL.. quite malu- ating also larh huh.. but!.. i cant help it too!.. haha,.. okae..
i wanna slp!
ciaoz

2004-11-15T11:25:00.000-08:00

okae! decided to blog since its a happi dae 4 mi huh! muahhaa.. 14 nov. which was ytd .. was elmo's bdae! haha.. went to town wif the usual gang to celebrate his bdae! was damn fun larh.. joked all da wae and was liek teasing him non stop!.. hmm.. yarh.. gort him an elmo and we pooled $ to ged him a cake! whoa.. pearl has great taste larh! da cake she chose was super nise! yummy.. shyt! shouldnt have said it.... i hav the craving nw marns! the chocolate cake wif layers of diff. choco!.... *licks tongue*..... mm.. went to dat jap. restaurant to hav dinner and da cake!.. haha tink i shd start to exercise more after ytd marns... liek eat until i feel leik exploding
mm..caught "the forgotten".. was a nise showlarh.. although oyur necks felt liek breaking after da show.. due to da poor seats! haha! but its level of suspense is damn high larh... alwaes manages to shock mi and everyone i guess.. liek deres alwaes a commotion after the shocking part!.. mm.. i cant stop but wonder wurt type of brain the director hav marns.. liek can think of such a interesting and special plot!.. totalli cool!
and oh YES!!.. pearl is goin to ophir!... yeah! dat means i will go too!.. gort liek ppl frm ma gang.. haha... da feelning'd juz different when dere's sumone u are close wif larh!... i look forward to it!.
pearl arh.. thanks marns.. lurve u lorrts...
mm... i seem so lost in touch wif her*.. i mis her.. but i noe its nort the case wif her larh.. liek so totalli.. i m juz eher msn chatter mayb for all i noe.. which is liek so possible..
but well... life has to go on.. so yeps..
shall go count cows alreadi! they are moo-ing
ciaoz.

2004-11-13T23:45:00.000-08:00

lieking sumone is such a hard thing! little little things dat they do might juz break ya heart! i m so sians diao larh! leik 1 moment she sounds liek she noes u so well and the next she is juz so cold! wurt is da real her? but mm... on wed. was realli weird larh.. she liek tells mi alort more things dan usual! but dan on fri. she is soo super cold... dat makes mi realli wonder was i realli chattin wif her on wed. anort! its liek such a vast change larh! and i m realli sadded :(
okae.. shall blog about sth nise larh.. wenta mediacorp dere 4 dat mel thingy!.. and ltr went to that prata hse!.. haha twinnie was liek our leetle leader larh.. super cute!.. shes ma twinnie newae! haaa... but i enjoyed dat informal "klaz outing" was so much fun!.. but gortta admit dat that ter. is too overly excited marns! liek until nw he canort ged over da fact that he was i emphasise WAS on tv! liek kep on talking bout it. our ear drums canort take it larh TER!.
yarh... tink i can earn much more dis mth larh.. hahha its worth to wk dis mth!... alort of double pay daes! hhahaa...
and yarh... lately, twinnie is VERY into swimming!.. mm.. twinnie arh.. maybe we set a day in a week aside for swimming? dan we go every week to workout dere?... hahhaa good idea nort?
mm.. and the highlight for todae(sat) is the kayaking session larh.. liek damn pathetic cans! onli 5 ppl came.. and dat includes mi larh!.. and i was da onli gurl who went!.. haha.. i was scared to bath marns.. liek da toilet was freaking quiet!.. haha make mi bath so fast larh.. !
but i do have a phobia of the dancer marns! i hate it.. but i just cant stop it. i am even scared to capsize wif dat dancer marns.. but.. i managed to do dat eskimo bow rescue thingy 4 times todae!... can be considered an improvement to mi!.. haha.. thanks guys 4 helping mi!
but guys arh! dun alwaes make m capize leh!.. i beg u all!... i m SCARED larh! i dun wanna drown!..
mm.. i wan to go ophir..... I WAN!... i really hope dat pear can make it larh! all ma clicky de all canort go! charmaine is officially super sadded !..
okae.. shall get to slp alreadi!..
ciaoz.

2004-11-06T22:29:00.000-08:00

m back to blog! mm... tink i m juz begining to liek goin to sch? YES. coz i find staying at hm realli hair-wreaking!.. as in i reaali wanna pull ma hair.. due to boredom!
hmm.. chatted wif her on fri larh!.. liek i m soo happi :).. reali hapi! haha.. and twinnie i m nort bias kaes! LOL... hhaa I M A FAIR PERSON! but stupid msn gortta b dwn at that time.. and she gort d/c?.. but at least i gortta chat wif her! i miz her liek hell!!!.. TOTALLI.
went dwn to orchard wif terence and ade. haha.. ma legs breaking marns.. liek walked all da wae frm one end of orchard to the otehr end marns!.. oh yarh.. i hope ter. is feeling better lahr.. he looks pale on fri!...
and.. imagine goin to orchard fir 2 consecutive daes!.. but well.. cant help it.. s'pore's juz too small....
mm... argh!... whie muz munni exist! its juz papers wif value newae wurt!.. i wanna ged alort of things ler... its liek so tempting to buy!.. nise things pls dun let yaself appear frm in ma view ler.. i m easily tempted cans! saw this quilksilver bag.. i liek it larh.. but duno if i shd ged it anort ler.. hahaa.... m still deciding!..
i'm nw juz back frm wk! breakfast is making mi giddy!.. count the no. of times i walk up and dwn that counter front!.. liek so mani condiments to take juz for 3 pieces of hotcakes!.. SIANS DIAO!
haha.. okae larh.. i admit! i m lazi! but at least i m hardworking enuff ta blog larh okae!.. canort complain?
okae.. shall end here.. gonna ged sum slp b4 tennis.. and ball-picking session!..
m looking 4ward to go sch.. but nort looking 4ward 4 lesson lahr.. VB u noe! sighs!..

but.. i m definately looking 4ward to see her!.. i miz her!

2004-11-03T23:33:00.000-08:00

i m sad.. i miss her... my rj is friggin hard and ma fac sarks! lesson is so boring. i am hardly surviving.. ma team mates sarks. adn ma dae sarks!

2004-11-03T13:52:00.000-08:00

m nw in klaz! liek i am damn bored larh! stuck wif the san pa again! but i canort imagine marns.. liek dere are actualli ppl that mark others dwn on the evaluation.. and i liek all the while think that nobodi even read the qsn??..
hmm.. alrytes! i decided to do research on ma own and present it! yes! shall do juz dat next week!
mm.. argh... i miz her to bits larh! tink i realli liek her nowadaes. But she's seldom online cans! such a saddening fact! i wanna chat wif her! she's damn cute! super cute! hhaa.. but newae. m juz veri contented to be able to chat wif her larh! its such a big jump cans!
oh yarh.. m happi 4 twinnie! liek her grace messaged her! whoa.. twinnie muz jia you kaes!
oakes..
*prays*
.ciao.

boring sats?

2004-10-30T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmm.. *nods head* todae's friggin boring larh.... and its a saturdae!! dere's no kayakin and i have no programmes on! wurt a dae marns! but yarh.. at least i gort this whole blog thingy done.!! *smiles* haaa.. can i sae i m proud of ma self? muhahaha..
watched windstruck at hm! was nise.. but whie does the guy gortta die marns.. i liek happi ending shows :( ... but i suddenly realised dat life is actualli damn unpredictable larh.. liek u can juz die suddenly! so.. live life to da fullest eveeryone!
aiyah.. cant stand ma self todae.. since ytd's happenings, cant stop thinking of her marns. but she's alwaes nort online when i am!..
mm.. but m rather sadded larh todae.. i m hurt by ma sista's actions? i dun understand it marns!
liek i tell her every single thing that happens in ma life and even every single dae.. liek EVERYTHING cans! but she DOESNT.. and i am on 1 hand sadded but on the other pissed? shd i even be? i noe she went out wif him*.. liek obvious? whie cant i noe wurt is happening in her life? its nort as if i am a stranger ryte! but i duno larh.. he hurt her sooo pucking much and made her cry liek hell.. and she still treats him liek good?
well... maybe i shouldnt even care larh..
okaeokae.. shall blog next time.. ciaos.

2004-10-30T00:54:00.000-07:00

finally back to blog.. muhhaa.. after slacking for liek 1 mth +? haha.. but at least i bothered to create a new one since ma old one's faulty!
hmm.. todae..or shd i sae ytd?.. since its alreadi long past 12 midnyte.
haha i gorta noe her* todae larh.. liek she is so darn cute and cool at the same time marns! i am soo over her larh... but liek being togedher is impossible lahr.. i noe dat! but i feel contented juz chatting wif her!! *winks* muahaa.. i am leik all smiles todae? keep smiling.... hapi dao larh... canort blame ones... muahhaa!
okaeoake.. shall blog when ma real blogger is up!
.ciaos.